Who am I? I ask this question not because I wish you knew. But because I wish I knew. I used to look in the mirror and see a beautiful girl, who loved herself. Not a care in the world what other people thought. Know when I dare to look in the mirror I see a girl who lost herself in a world full of hate. A girl who accepts the love she thinks she deserves, and in her messed up mind she deserves no ones love, especially not her own. I mean why should she, she messes everything up. I wish someone could look me in the eyes and see through my fake smile and laugh but they don't care enough to try. I want someone to take the time out of their day and ask me whats wrong. I could write pages and pages of whats wrong but I won't bother someone else. They have their own problems.
I'm no longer a person i'm a problem. My parents don't trust me. My friends don't care. My family send me to therapy for my problems. They're my problems. Leave me alone. I just wish I was a different person. I just wish I had a different mind. One that doesn't push my loved ones away. I don't know who I am. And I don't know how to find out who I am.
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Hi 👋, Thank you for your post. I have this quote from Beyoncé on my computer. "Knowing who you are is the greatest wisdom a human being can possess. Know your goals, what you love, your morals, your needs, your standards, what you will not tolerate and what you are willing to die for. It defines who you are."
I have found this link to a great website which might help you process the answer to your big question, who am I?
Hi I don't know who you are either. (I mean, we haven't met, haha.) But I know your decisions shape who you become. What you decide NOW determines what you will be tomorrow. Have you tried to emulate someone you respect. Get a role model. Start yourself on the path to becoming the person you want to be. You may learn more about yourself that way.
That's the spirit! If you don't know anyone who could be a role model, there are lots of great historical figures you can read about or learn about online. I think of the pioneer women of America, like Laura Ingalls and her family. Amazing people who lead desperately challenging lives. There is a lot to admire. Best wishes!
Self discovery is a journey and takes time and work to come to the answer of "who am I ". When you were happy and loved yourself what was going on in your life at the time? what changed? Maybe start journaling to uncover those answers. It is good therapy at any rate.
I'm not gonna lie to you. A lot has happened in my life. My mom and dad left me in fostercare, chose drugs over their daughter. Then signed away all rights so i could be adopted by my Aunt and Uncle who took me out of fostercare. And i've made a ton of bad choices. Since I was abandoned by my parents, the only thing I know about myself is that i wasn't worth fighting for. If my mom and dad didnt fight for me then why should i fight for myself.
tealgrey if your parents were addicted to drugs they were incapable of making good choices for you or themselves. That is what an addiction does to a person. You are no longer in control of yourself but controlled by the drugs. That doesn't make you worthless. You are a beautiful, wonderful creation. Have you considered therapy?
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If you don't know anyone who could be a role model, there are lots of great historical figures you can read about or learn about online. I think of the pioneer women of America, like Laura Ingalls and her family. Amazing people who lead desperately challenging lives. There is a lot to admire. Best wishes!
Something I need to say: This site is not meant to be some kind of dating app!!!
Something Else is Wrong?
Something different. 
Just say something, anything. I just want to know that Im not the only one who's feeling this
