Poem.... I'M A BROKEN HUMAN BEING

[Foreverbroken31]

I can feel the attack starting to build inside of me. I tried walking it off i tried to keep it at bay. I tried getting some air but i knew it was there trying hard to crawl outside of my body. And all hell broke loose inside of me i had never felt the way i did. The thoughts were driving me crazy... my breathing turned agitated i felt like i needed to pull at my hair and in seconds everything went black. Everything i had held onto for months finally came out. It was the most painful feeling and the worst nightmare happening before my eyes. This was literally an attack on my own body heart and mind. As i stand in the darkness with tears running down my face i have come to realize I'm not strong enough. Im not brave enough. Im all but a mere human being trying to cope with reality.

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You are strong enough , you are aware of all your emotions do not run from them face them head on , breath acknowledge your feelings and your pain forgive yourself forgive those who have caused you pain talk to anyone that will listen cry it out

[kenster1]

sorry to hear of your struggles remember this though every broken thing can be repaired including us keep at it and never give in.

[detour13 in reply to kenster1]

I am 53 and I have been broken since I was 18.. This anxiety has ruined my life.. Avoided places I used to love to go, avoided places I wanted to visit , all from this demon called Panic Attack.. I will never be repaired , Im just living life, have my highs and lows. But it peeks it's evil head out every morning I wake up.. Just starting my day is a freaken struggle..