New Kid on the Block

[JRS2007]

I just joined this tonight.. Figured I'd give it a shot. Dealing with a lot right now between being out of work for a couple weeks (no fault of my own) and trying to figure out a relationship as well as dealing with being alone with my racing thoughts a lot.. Haven't been in the best of places this last week. Just trying to hang in there and I would love to elaborate more...

[FearIsALiar]

Welcome to the group! Please elaborate

[JRS2007 in reply to FearIsALiar]

This might be long... so I broke up with my ex in August and she was a severe alcoholic unfortunately and after2 years of trying to deal with that I couldn't anymore. I made that mistake ive made a couple times in the past yet again and ended up seeing a coworker... It began right before my prior one ended. But that was over long before it was actually over..

Then the area I live in in Oregon was ravaged by wildfires in September and I came very close to losing my home but barely got by. Then the person I was seeing called it off last month and trying to work with them hasn't been easy. Lot of mixed signals and whatnot... Now it's as if it has restarted. And its been a battle trying to keep my cool with it..

Also in the process of trying to buy a home. Very close to getting there but my time where I am at is running short. So there's that.. and a couple ppl at my work came down with covid so I've had to go on a temporary 2 week "quarantine" and my work is the social life I have so ive been very alone with my thoughts and my mind races nonstop so that hasn't been fun. Got a couple options to figure out with the living situation so there's also that.. Just very overwhelmed. My work is the only social life I really have as sad as it is to say as well as the main time I get to see that person I mentioned earlier.

I battle depression and anxiety years ago and now its coming back so its been a struggle and im just trying to reach out instead of shutting down and secluding like I usually do. I know that isn't healthy from past experience.

[crecre in reply to JRS2007]

Hey! Welcome to the group. I want you to know that we all are here for you and we support you. I am so sorry you had to deal with the alcoholism in your relationship... I am sure that drained you and hurt you really bad. I have an alcoholic family and I know how difficult that can be. I am proud of you for getting through that and being able to end it. What are you exactly looking for on this site? Support, people to talk to, advice etc... Either way we are here to help and listen. I know it is exhausting to have to deal with mental illness as well as deal with life problems on top of that. sending love

[JRS2007 in reply to crecre]

Yes id say mainly ppl to talk to and support. All this has taken me to a dark place I never thought I'd see again.. and thank you

[FearIsALiar in reply to JRS2007]

Awe..well seems like you’re struggling with a fair bit of things. Right now is really a stressful time for everything. I’m currently going through a breakup from someone so toxic. I’m happy I got out but I keep trying to make good out of the things he did which is not okay....it sucks but I guess I just missed who I made him out to be. That was someone he wasn’t!

Anyways I won’t keep going on because I don’t want to be annoying lol! But just know you’re definitely not alone. It takes time to heal after a breakup .

[Agora1]

Hi JRS Welcome to this amazing support forum. I'm glad you choose to reach out for support instead of shutting down and secluding. With all the issues you have going on,

it's best not to feel so all alone and share your journey with others who can relate.

This is a safe, caring site to be on and I'm glad you are here with us. Thanks for the work you do as a postal worker. Just one of the jobs that I have respect for. xx

[JRS2007 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you. That's my problem is shutting off and keeping it all in and the rational side of me knows it isn't a good thing to do. Just be nice to have ppl to talk to who are dealing with similar stuff