Emotions are running wild

[Earthchild10]

My emotions are running away from me. I went out to the super market.. and I felt as if I was floating as I walked into the store. There were so many people. I managed to survive and not get an anxiety attack.. but thereafter I felt really sad and emotional because I realized I can no longer do the things I normally do. And this pandemic has made it worst. So being stuck indoors has been such a norm for me, and going out feels so foreign. I’m filled with so much emotions right now 😭 I can’t seem to cope. It’s really hard. And I feel like I project all these emotions onto my fiancé because he has his own things his dealing with.

[Blackedout]

I feel like I'm right here with you. I'm new here. Just joined yesterday. Havent told my boyfriend about this group yet and am not sure about how to do so because I feel like such a burden. I dont drive so I'm constantly asking for things and relying on him and he suffers from depression as well and has his own stuff. Still not too sure how this site works but I'm here if you need to talk. Just thought I'd let you know you aren't alone. My anxiety isnt as bad as yours but I overthink everything and end up causing myself mental anxiety about stuff that hasn't happened and slowly drive myself crazy so I may be able to understand if you ever want to reach out

[pink318 in reply to Blackedout]

Hi- Welcome to the forum!

Please feel free to post anytime, I hope you will find the support you need. We are here for each other. God bless!

[Earthchild10 in reply to Blackedout]

Thank you so much! I immensely appreciate this. It’s been a tough journey and it’s as if I need to get to know myself all over again this year.. which makes it hard! Sometimes I even feel anxious when I need to go shower, fearing something might happen to me whilst I’m in the shower. I’m doing much better.. I’ve been for acupuncture in the week.. and it somehow helped me. Thank you blackedout & pink318 ❤️❤️❤️ I appreciate all the love and support

[pink318]

Hi- I’m so sorry you feel this way. You are not alone. This pandemic impacted everyone differently. On the first few days of lock down, I was scared and worried of what will happen in the future. I was scared to go out. I prayed while crying and lessened my time watching news.

Everyday, I sat on my porch to see people passing by. We sometimes drove to restaurants for take outs. Eventually, I felt comfortable going out of my house and then tried to walk around our neighborhood even for a few minutes while wearing a mask and social distance.

Please stay strong. I pray that this pandemic will soon be over. Keep sharing and I hope you will find comfort here. I pray that you will feel better soon. Take care.

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This resonates with me too. When I go shopping I tell myself "You have a right to be here just like anybody else," over and over, trying to convince myself I don't have to feel like an alien.

I went to get a hair cut the other day and was on edge the whole time. Shortness of breath, muscle tension, feeling a wall go up between me and the stylist, unable to have a conversation. Just the usual social anxiety.

Can't quit though! Have to keep making those efforts. Hang in there!