A wave

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In the middle of a wave of depression. Like the peak part. When you’ve been fighting it and trying so hard to prevent and take precautions and doing all your self care stuff.. and then the wave is so big and you’re just left with no choice but to give into it and all the shitty feelings. When you’ve got no energy left to even try to stop feelings. So you start to try to ride it out without knowing how long or how deep the wave is going to push you underwater.

I am so angry with how hard depression makes the easiest things. I have countless conversations in my head. I plan on telling my supports how I feel and I just can’t. I want to fully feel my feelings, to just be sad and cry, but I can’t.

It stops me.

Every time.

And builds and builds so that eventually it gets so big that it all just crushes me.

And yeah, I cycle out eventually. And I stabilize. But that doesn’t hold a place in my current reality.

Is this where medications may come in handy?

Does anyone find it actually helps to create some new neuropathways to help change your depressive wave from decimating you? Does medication create alternate or smaller waves?

[FearIsALiar]

I know how you feel...it sucks. But I hope you find comfort in knowing you’re not alone and you’re not the only one feeling like this!

I take medicine for my anxiety/depression and it helps but doing therapy with it helps even more! Or doing self help workbooks and educating yourself more on mental health 😊

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Hi. I can only tell you what my experience is.

Medication helps me because it creates smaller waves (love your words here!) I have to make sure and take it everyday or else I'll slip back down.

Talk with your doctor about whether medication is right for you (medication isn't for everyone). They are the ones who know your medical history and should be able to advise you.