I read someone else's post about not wanting to be alive, and I felt like I was reading about myself. I'm not suicidal for various reasons, but I think about the relief in dying all of the time. I wish I could give my health to a COVID 19 patient who is dying and take his/her place. I try to find some reason that I'm alive, but I can't come up with one.
Sweettina
I am so sorry to hear you are feeling like this. Please know that things will always be better! If you need someone to talk to, please feel free to pop me a message any time
hello Sweettina,Sorry to hear of your lifelong battle with depression.!Your still teaching too,and with modern technology,life in general can sometimes be overwhelming,especially with this unknown Virus haunting us......IM sure ,that your days when you feel is life worth living and must I carry on with is dreadful nothingness/emptiness---its good you are still in therapy and can offload to that person.....I have suffered lifelong anxiety,and ageing well,but I too have an affinity with suicide ,and can empathise.Im over 70 and living alone often worries me..if you wish to respond please do P.M. hoping that you can relate.
Hi sweetina what's the point in swapping places with a covid sufferer if you wanted to help them why not join the race to finding a vaccine that way you would feel you were giving to help someone and feel good about doing it instead of feeling you want to be dead
Coping with depression that makes you not want to live. 
Im either depressed as hell or fatigued...or both... and it's a living hell 
“Depression is living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that tries to die.”
So Lonely It Hurts to Live
depressed/anxious/medical issues= I don't want to live anymore. My last attempt to connect with others. 
