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“Depression is living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that tries to die.”

tamka38
tamka38

“People think depression is sadness. People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, being numb to lie. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again. Days aren’t really days; they are just annoying obstacles that need to be faced. And how do you face them? Through medication, through drinking, through smoking, through drugs, through cutting. When you’re depressed, you grasp on to anything that can get through the day. That’s what depression is, not sadness or tears, it’s the overwhelming sense of numbness and the desire for anything that can help you make it from one day to the next.”

“Often the people with the strongest hearts carry the heaviest ones.”

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I love that quote!

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to Iloveart7

Me too

Really true.. Me too...

My mind constantly think about how to change myself to other people who talk frankly and deal with other.

Me too

CrazyWolf
CrazyWolf
in reply to tamka38

I really appreciate the way you titled depression. So very true & well put.

CrazyWolf

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to CrazyWolf

U welcome am,Just tried of people thinking.

U can just get over it,wish it was that easy.

tamka, I never knew what depression really feels like to someone since

I have not experienced it myself. You gave quite a vivid explanation in

how devastating it can be. I am sorry you are going through this as well

as all the others on the forum. We can't help if we don't understand.

Thank you for sharing this through your pain and suffering. xx

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to Agora1

Depression is darkness filling your heart, surrounding your soul. Everything takes so much energy. People around you don’t understand, you’re doing the best you can Responsibilities overwhelm, expectations you can’t meet weigh heavily, Sorrow fills you until there is no room for anything else. Strength to fight, to find joy and love, slowly seeps from your soul. Endless days without hope loom before you, enveloping you in the darkness.”

“I’m hurt, and I’m heartbroken, and I’m sad, and I’m depressed, and I have been crying, but I don’t want to let it ruin my life.”

Agora1
Agora1
in reply to tamka38

My heart breaks for you tamka. You express yourself quite well using words that can

make me feel your pain and emptiness. The last few words you wrote "but I don't want to let it ruin my life" make me feel that you could with the right treatment overcome this pain. I'm sure there are others on this forum who have gone or are

going through the same. There's got to be an answer. I just don't know enough to

let you know what it is. xx

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to Agora1

U here and I appreciate it

Agora1
Agora1
in reply to tamka38

I'm glad that all of us can be here for each other even if we don't quite

understand, it must help to know someone cares enough to listen and

to support you. xx

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to Agora1

Thank you

I completely understand and feel it daily. My depression is like a roller coaster. I can go a day, a week, a month, or a year, every day just trying to make it to the next. On the other hand I can do the same times on the positive side. I never know when it will hit me.

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to aaronm

Do u the medication help u? I feel so struck right. I been praying and reading

My bible and reaching out

It helps me a LOT! I know it does based on the few times I said "I'm fine!" Well the reason I was fine was because of the medication. I went off them and it was not good. My depression often manifests as extreme anger and rage. Thankfully I've never hurt anyone but I've come way to close and it scares me!

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to aaronm

How long u been off your medication? I been on mines for 3 weeks

I'm on it now. Hopefully I've learned my lesson this time. Lol. The longest was when the psychiatrist reduced my dose. That lasted 10 months till a new psychiatrist upped it to where it used to be. I've defined that ten months as the lowest time ever. In the middle of that 10 months I had a brain bleed and nearly died. After that panic attacks came like I've never felt before. I never want to experience it again.

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to aaronm

Oh no,did they tell u why u had a brain bleed. That’s scary did u have to have surgery? That would had made me panic too.

aaronm
aaronm
in reply to tamka38

They never figured out why. They said some people walk around with a brain bleed and they don't know it. They think I was one of those people.

Yes, exactly!!

Beautiful, tamka38. And relatable. Thank you for sharing.

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to LovelySnow

You’re welcome am just so tried of hurting and I really my family understand what am going through but they think am just lazy

LovelySnow
LovelySnow
in reply to tamka38

:( I'm sorry, tamka. But I'm so glad we can all relate to each other and find support here! I hope you take that support with you! I'm sending you a hug.

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to LovelySnow

Thank you, I really needed it❤️

LovelySnow
LovelySnow
in reply to tamka38

Sure thing. 💖💖💖

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to LovelySnow

Sending u a great big hug 🤗 and positive energy and vibes your way.

LovelySnow
LovelySnow
in reply to tamka38

Awesome! I love it. Thank you!

tamka38
tamka38
in reply to LovelySnow

You’re welcome

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