Feeling Lost

[frankieram]

I’m new here I just needed a safe space to say how i’ve been feeling lately. Everyday I wake up, i just don’t know what to do with myself. I am taking classes online and working part time but it’s not enough and i find myself drained from the lack of stimulation. It’s hard for me to get work done and stay productive. I find myself in bed most of the day and if i go out i can only stay out for an hour. I am so bored of everyday life. I just can’t stay home anymore because when I do I start thinking and overthinking and I get sad. when i wake up in the morning, i am scared of getting sick so i don’t want to leave my apartment but then when i’m outside i feel like a person again. I think I want to do more with myself and then when I think more about it I get scared that it won’t be the right path for me and i give up. I am graduating from college in a month and i know i should be happy and excited for the future but i am not. I am terrified of what’s to come and i am scared of letting people down. My parents put so much extra pressure on me to figure it out and make something of myself but I know I am not mentally prepared to take on something so big alone. I just want to keep going and not be a burden to anyone. I don’t know what’s best for me anymore and I just don’t know where to go from here. I want to be happy and do what’s best for me without disappointing others along the way. I have been looking for jobs out of state and thinking about moving. I am hoping a change in scenery will do me some good but I also don’t want to leave my little bubble of comfort. I know I just can’t keep going like this because it is slow and painful. I feel so alone. I know that I need to do something new and that’s why I wanted to try this too. Any advice is appreciated.

[Linakv24]

Hi frankieram, sorry to hear that. I know it’s silly to comment if I have nothing to say to cheer you up. My life experience is not the same as yours what might work for me, might not work for you, but hey at least I try. Have you try saying positive words to yourself when feeling negative? I gave my kids one day I bookmark. In the bookmark there were negative saying and positive saying...ex: I’m ugly/ I’m beautiful. Since I know the mind can play tricks on us I didn’t want them to feel sad or depress. And, also I’ve always told them that I will make mistake and say something I shouldn’t have, but when I’m calm enough I would apologize them ( because I knew I was wrong). I learned that the hard way..in my twenties to thirties due to my anxiety I didn’t know how to handle them and with kids. I was irritated a lot. I knew it wasn’t their fault but i acted badly, always yelling at them for small stuff making them crying and harden my heart to their tears. And one day I told myself I needed to change because I was hurting them with my anger. I would tell myself I won’t get mad, I won’t yell, I’ll let things slide and not act like if they were in the military due to my strictness too. And little by little I noticed I changed a bit. I still get mad but not like before and I’m not as strict either. Now they both love me to much, sometimes I can’t get away from them. And those lazy bums wouldn’t leave the house if I don’t go with them...lol

[Operalady]

Hi what helps me is vigorously exercise! Weight training, power walking help my brain!

[iamawesome]

i have felt that too your parents just have so many hopes for you and they pressurize you to do more but you actually think that you don't want their high expectations because at the end if you dissapoint them your heart is literally crushed . the only thing you can do is send a letter to them or write it down and send it to them because thats the only if you feel uncomfortable to talk to your parents then i suggest you doing this. also i do some yoga and some stretching to take all those dirty thoughts of

[Hidden]

First of all, hello and welcome! Congratulations on graduating soon! The thing that sticks out to me about your post is your worry about disappointing others. I am still learning this as well. I hate disappointing others, and doing so makes me feel really bad. I am learning that I can't possibly please everyone. I have to make my own way in life, and what others think about that are just opinions and not facts!!