Looking for support in Maryland

[AmandaHeather]

Hi. I am a 44 year old mother of four. I have always cared for my children alone. I have fought my battle with depression for 31 years now. I am getting so very tired. I currently see two therapists, one for my depression, and one to help me work through my PTSD. I am tired. I have to hide how hard I am fighting from most that know me. I am afraid of losing my children, my business...I don’t have any friends anymore. Everyone got tired of dealing with my depression. I would be so grateful to hear from someone who understands. I am so alone.

[Luna-blade]

You should be proud of yourself and what you have achieved so far in your life. It’s very normal to suffer from depression having all this burden on you but do not despair. Maybe you need some medication to treat your depression and you will recover gradually. Keep strong !!

[AmandaHeather]

Thank you. I have been on one or more antidepressants for almost 30 years. I am seeing two therapists. I am considering asking for additional meds.

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You are doing a good job. I agree with one other comment on here " you should be proud of yourself". Sorry you going thru all of this.

[AmandaHeather]

The rational part of me is proud. The part of me that is struggling so much feels like I am not healing fast enough, that I am not pushing hard enough, that I am not enough.

[Pel3749]

You need to take good care of yourself. You do a good job taken care of everyone but you must think of yourself also. Talk to your therapist tell them how you are. God Bless.

[AmandaHeather]

Thank you guys. I am grateful for your words of encouragement.

I start CPT next week. I am really hopeful that it will work for me, so that I can move forward with me life.