Tough Day

[LoveBear]

Had a really tough day - it just hits. I hate fucking depression too.

[Zeppelinismyfave]

I’m sorry you had a tough day Love.

Depression is a bitch. A lying bitch. Remember that depression lies.

You are enough, and you are valuable.

❤️

[Micafe]

Same here, LoveBear. I can't stop crying. 😭

[Hidden]

We're in the same boat...I've had a tough day too. I cannot even describe what I am feeling, that's how bad. I slept most of the day and when I was awake, I was crying. The only thing I can say in how I am feeling is: off-kiltered (unbalanced). Why? Who the heck knows. Hopefully we feel a bit better tomorrow. Just hang in there, you are not alone!

[Hidden]

Heya friend I’m here and I fucking hate it too!

Anything you want to talk about?

[Sprinkle1]

Life can be so horrible at times, and to be cursed with depression is to add insult to injury. I know have suffered all my life!!! I am always so grateful when we get my brain sorted out, been on antidepressants for decades. I have a wonderful therapist who helps me So much, One of the first things she said to me was "This is Not Your Fault", "You have a mental illness and need to be treated for it". During my life I have had the problem of building up a tolerance to a drug, so we have to switch me to a different one, some work, some don't!!! As far as daily stress goes it is not easy to deal with, there is a great book I read over 30 years ago by Dr. Scott Peck, The Road Less Traveled, it was in the top 10 best seller list for 7 years. A friend lent me his copy, 1st line first page he says "Life is difficult", I said why did not someone tell me that when I was 16? Further down the same page he refers to Buddha who said "Life is Suffering, once you transcend it the suffering ends". So I set out to "Transcend". The book offers lots of insights and helped me a Lot. I still use some of the lessons to this day, I managed to transcend it took me 20 years, going to therapy, especially group, and reading helpful books. I have been suicidal and made 2 attempts, promised myself after the last one at age 46 "suicide in not an option", have been in hospital 7 times, it has not been easy. Thankfully I learnt to give up worry, unfounded guilt, in a spiritual group I learnt to live in the moment, that was so freeing, that is all we have "this moment" I have few regrets which I push out of my mind, I plan very little ahead, I am free and happy when I get up and when I go to bed. I am 78 now and have lived in this space for well over 20 years. Longevity runs in my family, so I think I am good for another 10 years or more, as long as the virus does not get me!!!

You can get the book at Amazon used/new, it is a worthwhile investment.

So please be good to yourself, be your own best friend, no beating yourself up, you are human and will make mistakes, which I use as a tool to learn and not repeat. I hated myself for years, thru therapy I was taught to love, accept and respect myself, I do not care if other people do not like me, after all I do not like everybody, and to hell with what they think, which I do not really know anyway.

I am my own best friend and I live my day to the fullest, I am all by myself with two beautiful cats, my friends are dying or have died. My nearest family is 3000 miles away, but I am happy and grateful for what I have achieved. I wish you well, if I can be of further help email me. Sending love, peace, strength, belief in self and big virtual hugs.......Sprinkle 1.......