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How would you know that your depression is not severe? I force myself everytime to do anything. I still cook, take shower, go out and do groceries. But really just wanted to do nothing. My sleep was worst maybe a month ago but getting better. Taking magnesium and chamomile tea and using weighted blanket. No suicide ideation, I float with anxiety (Claire Weekes), could control my thinking somewhat.

Is this what it is? I know I am depressed but don't know how deep. For all I know, I'm deep in this hole. Thoughts?

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Depression changes. As you describe, makes it harder to get things done. I barely leave bed. Sleep feels so good. My blankets protect me from everything. The darker the room the better. Where do you draw your strength to still get things done?

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BaltimoreTeacher in reply to Iammesues

I think about my family and friends and a brighter future. There is much I know beyong this depression. I see a glimer of light thinking there is so much beyind this depreasion.

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You are still functioning even if you have to force yourself to do things, so it could be worse.

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BaltimoreTeacher in reply to bonkers65

Hope its not worse than originally thought. I gives us hope knowing we still do things we don't want to do. Knowing the motivation is there and be present.

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Iammesues in reply to BaltimoreTeacher

I admire your thinking. My hope I gone and it causes major problems

Maybe there’s a chart that can depict the levels of depression. But even if there were, you can be deeply depressed and still function. For me, regardless of how depressed I get, and it’s been known to be “ready to end my life” bad, I still always find myself getting out of bed, getting ready for the day, taking care of myself, etc. I do all of that because I don’t know any other way... maybe it’s a sort of OCD that I have to do those things regardless of how I’m feeling.How about instead of focusing on what level of depression you’re on, keep talking about your depression experience with those that “get it?” Someone might jump in the hole with you, and let you know they know the way out.

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Thanks for replying. Yeah, if there is a chart it would be helpful. To do things is hard just focus on the present and change our mindset to recovery.

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For sure.... doing anything while feeling depressed is one of the most difficult feats imaginable. Then add in the feeling like, "what am I doing this all for," and you're left with something that feels insurmountable. Perhaps, it's finding some solace when you do something or anything (like posting to a forum). It's giving value, doesn't have to be a lot, to just the fact that you took action. You did something, and that shouldn't be dismissed. Recovery is a long, long, long, never ending road.

You mentioned focusing on the present. Are you doing any sort of meditation?

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