When

[Hopelessly]

When was the last time you really laugh, when was the last time you felt joy, a moment of happiness? When was the last time that you really smiled, a genuine smile not a fake one? When was the last time you woke up and look forward to the day? I can't really point out any times those happen not even a second or moment in the day. It's been to long feeling empty, feeling hollow, feeling annoyed or angry. Wake up I think today another day o just have to get through it and smile and fakes laughs all day. I will try my hardest to make everyone else feel happy. So when was the last time you did something purely for yourself? When was the last time you felt relaxed, or even felt like you were doing okay?

[Hidden]

U my friend need "Bumper balls" re:Amazon.com. I received a box in the mail,hadn't ordered anything,opened the box to see 2 of these.I couldn't stop laughing.Sometimes we just need something outrageous to take us out of the mindset we r in.Even for 10 minutes of laughter.

[bonkers65]

A very long time ago.

[thara9643]

This evening

[Downandout123]

I honestly can't remember.

[Hidden]

Not in a very long time. But a movie that cheers me up every time I watch it is Bruce Almighty. And listening to Things Can Only Get Better by Howard Jones.

[HellotoYou]

Hi everyone 🌻

[NoelDream]

I don’t recall a day where I felt a full day of happiness, as I have Complex PTSD... but I have learned to find moments where I can.

Each day, I challenge myself to make something great happen... I wake up and say an affirmation looking for the good. Sometimes it’s really little, like today the sun reflected beautifully on a tree... for me, personally, I find peace in focusing on the one tiny beauty than the 1,000 weighted stressors. It takes a lot of practice, but eventually, I have found I see more beauty and less stress. It may not make sense, but instead of focusing on the big sad and scary things, I zoom in on the little joys... even if I have to scour for them (which I do most days)

And slowly, over time the big stressful things are getting smaller. And the little joys are getting bigger.

Wishing you strength and peace ❤️

[Hopelessly in reply to NoelDream]

I'm sorry you have complex ptsd I can't imagine what it's like. I always willing to try and understand. And that good that you try and zoom in on the good stuff the little bits of joy. And maybe I need to look at nature see the beauty in it try and focus on it

[sophie4]

I m so very sorry that you are suffering so intensely. I relate to your every word. I want to offer you hope. There is purpose in suffering. Maybe we'll discover the reason, maybe not. At a time when you are feeling so, so down, specific suggestions may not be helpful at all. So, I won't make any. But I will offer you my sincere friendship. I am here and will always listen carefully to every word you share. I want you to remember that I am thinking and caring about you. I certainly can relate to all that you've written.

I haven't laughed for over 20 years. I haven't felt light, hopeful, eager, motivated since forever. I've lost my appetite...even for chocolate!!! I don't want anything for myself. I feel as though I'm in a state of shock. Many, many traumas. Too many betrayals.I can't remember the last time i smiled other than to be polite to someone.

I can tell you that I have two seemingly magical darling dogs who keep me alive. I do play with them all the time...take them for walks...go 'exploring' for new smells...maintain a routine that keeps them happy, I believe. But there are too many times when I am simply unable to function. Under the covers!!! And they are right by my side.

I will be thinking of you. I will be thinking of you often, throughout the day and night. I want you to know that I sincerely care about you.

Take very good care of yourself. Do whatever you can possibly do to provide yourself with some sense of serenity.

[Hopelessly in reply to sophie4]

I have one dog and two cats and they do make it better. They are part of the reason I stay I don't want to leave them alone. I care and love them they are my world. But any other time it just feels lonely world I'm loving in. And I'm sorry for the to many traumas and betrayals you have been through. And I don't like it when you lose appetite for your favorite snack or food. Or when the tv show you like so very much you can't even enjoy watching it.

[sophie4 in reply to Hopelessly]

Did you just get a message from me? I'm having mega computer issues.

I hope you get this because I've been thinking about you and care very much about how you are.

I don't think this computer's working...I can't even use the keyboard. A keyboard pops up on the screen and I have to click on each letter...takes soooo long.

Please know that you are in my thoughts. I'll try to write to you tomorrow.

Be well, my friend.

sophie4

[inlandsmog]

Been a long time

[wittsend0]

It's been way too long, I don't know that I remember what happy feels like.

[Agora1]

Each and every day. xx

[Luna-blade]

I understand what you are going through and how hard your case is since I suffer from pure OCD and severe anxiety most of the time. It’s hard wrestling with your own thoughts and mind all the time. However, I noticed lately something common between all those people who suffer from those symptoms like us. Those people are highly sensitive and special. They are caring and loving in a super special way to the extent they forget themselves for the sake of others. Rarely did I feel happy genuinely. The only time I do feel really happy is when I’m around my dogs cuddling with them and feeling their affection and loyalty. Those are the best moments of my life when they wipe out your tears with their sweet tongues and tell you we are always here for you just know you are special that’s why you are different. Sending all the love and support from Beirut, Lebanon 🇱🇧

[Hopelessly]

My dog does make it better coming home fo work to see her happy wagging tail and when she just wants to cuddle. My cats will lay by me and or bring me random things to cheer me up. I would say you are right people who suffer symptoms like we do are extremely caring and kind. And I would agree that we are highly sensitive.

When ever I try to do something for myself I feel guilty, like I don't deserve it. Like others are more important or their happiness means more or has more value than mine.

[Micafe]

I forgot...