How the hell do you deal with the toxicity of family if you have to live with it?

All of my life they've called me demon, saying I have problems and to take my pills, and my whole family looks at me as if I'm crazy. I've tried to be ok but so many years my mother and brother have called the cops on me saying I did something wrong and I've been placed in mental hospitals all my life. I have a lot of internal hate and remorse for how my mothers raised me, and my brother taunting me so that I could be gone and put away. I'm sick of living with them but I don't know how to get out and put a down payment for a home. I'm so tired and I don't know how many more years I can live with them putting me down.

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Oh my that is a conundrum! hell on earth...... I am so sorry you are facing this. I had to walk away from an entire family two years ago due to how toxic they were. Took me so long cause hey there family right? But I found that toxicity of that degree can not be managed or even taken in small controlled doses. It almost killed me to cut ties but now that i am seeing it from the other side, for me it was the best safest choice. I hope you can find your way out. No one deserves to live under that kind of stress. After going through what I went through I woud not wish it on my worst enemy. Sending hugs your way

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TV , FILM, Religion, etc. all claim Blood first, Family first, above all. That only works if you have people around you that actually think of you as more than a slave. If your family never, puts your needs first, if they constantly tell you your not good enough, if they constantly block you from your needs. Then they are not family. Family are those around you that support you, help you, balance your efforts with their efforts. If they don't, they are only are a drag on your life.

But what do I know? I have no-one I trust at this point in my life, all have taken and not given.

All see the world through their blinders that makes their needs more important than mine.

Is it me, partially, I'm sure. It requires my allowance of their actions to take place and continue on.

Move forward, protect yourself. Maybe happy isn't a real place, but hell in this world is.