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[Humphrey42]

Its been a long time since I have written on here.

I live on my own, have done for 10years plus. The low mood today just got worse and worse. Don't have enough tools in the box to stop it escalating. Being at home and on my own has really starting to get to me- with autumn and winter coming on- its only going to get worse.

I had some suicidal thoughts- pretty strong ones. I'm not on any medication btw.

I have some leave coming up - I have a mother who is 81 don't want bother her a sister who has her own mental health issues, a sister who might as well be on another planet- spoken once in two years.

Any help, advice appreciated.

Thanks

[Hidden]

Hi Humphrey42

If you've experienced suicidal thoughts then I'd suggest you consider seeing your doctor as a starting point, sometimes we just can't do thing's alone to begin with, we need a starting point, telling your doctor how your feeling is a good step in the right direction, then you can take it from there, it's a struggle being alone when your not feeling well with any illness, people will always be hear not only to share their own thoughts and experiences but often to offer comfort and advice whenever they can, but you need to start somewhere in to feel better and I'd suggest your doctor maybe a very good starting point for you. Your not alone so please try not to despair xx

[Humphrey42 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks- don't see the same GP twice- they will prescribe 20mg of anti-depressants probably either sertraline or fluxentine.

[janluvzcatz]

Getting an effective anti-depressant may help you. It helped me with my terrible depression, loneliness and feelings of despair. But be aware, it takes quite a while to kick in, like 4-6 weeks. The fatigue is overwhelming, but hang in there. It really does work and does help. You don't have family resources. I am in that boat too, but I have found a local grief group that offers support. Are you a person who can be in a group for help? I had to look at several groups and try them out, too. Some just don't work. Please know that reaching out for help is a very good beginning step. Keep trying!