Feeling Low

[dolanjohn]

I suppose feeling low is nothing new, and yet, here I am again. I feel so low. I had the nightmare again. I woke up a wreck. I had so much anxiety that I actually cut myself to relieve it. So now I feel anxious, sad, and ashamed. I feel like a failure, and I feel exhausted.

[AK0424]

Don't feel alone. I feel the same lately as well. Sucks. But all I do now is take it day by day. Rely on your crutches... Music, books, movies, friends, family... Us here too.

[Piggiesmalls]

Like the previous comment, you're not alone. But remember, the physical self harm doesn't actually help. You have psychologically built it up as helping. It actually does more harm then good.

Focus on things you enjoy. I myself have been trying to motivate myself more and do things with my kid. On the days she is with her mom I put my focus into music, or movies, games, a tv show or some other activity. Even if I do one for five minutes then switch. It gets me through.

One of my big desires has been to lose weight. I have yet to manage to motivate myself into the proper steps for that but it is a goal to focus on. I've signed up for several nutrition classes as well as to finally try and talk to a therapist. I have always been super hesitant about doing so, but I have reached the point where enough is enough and realized that it can not hurt me in any way so I have nothing to lose.

Stay strong and try picking something you enjoy! If you have similar hobbies as I listed I would be happy to recommend some things to try in each category.

[dolanjohn in reply to Piggiesmalls]

Thank you both. I know you are right. It's been a long time since I relied on something like cutting, I should have worked out instead. Working out usually helps set my head straight. I don't know. Just a low day. I hope things get better. I'm not sure they will, but I hope they do.

[Piggiesmalls in reply to dolanjohn]

They will. As people mantra, life has it's good days and it's bad. It is true. I wish i could summon that motivation to work out. I hype myself up for it and start looking forward to it, then when the time comes I just crash with the thought of the effort.