Ugly

[Not-here95]

I'm so sick of being in pain. I'm so sick of hating myself this much. Every inch of my skin is covered in the hatred I have for it. I feel so disgusting and wrong all the time..... I just want it all to stop....

[Hidden]

Don't listen to the thoughts in hu our head. You're not wrong and you're not disgusting. You are a wonderful person and deserve to live and be happy. If you want to talk I'm here to listen. One love.

[WiltedFlower]

are you doing anything to try to make you feel better? if they aren't working, maybe try something else? The best way to help yourself is the desire to change and you are doing really well just by reaching out to us. Don't feel alone and reach out if you'd like. I hope you feel better <3

[Hidden]

Hi "ugly" and I am sure you are not! I have been feeling that way this week too. I don't even know why, it just came over me like a storm. But I do think that a person doesn't just wake up and feel like garbage all of a sudden. I think perhaps someone made you feel that way once and you might just keep beating yourself up over and over; I know I do. As a child, one doesn't run around thinking, "wow, I am just horrible, why was I even born?" As a child, one skips around the world in happy wonder reveling in life unless someone comes along and pees in your cheerios. I think I feel bad because I was bullied and abused as a child and I have a very hard time not running those tapes. Also, I just haven't had the luxury of being around very good people in my life. Therefore, I feel bad about myself, and "ugly." I don't treat people like that, so why I think I am so awful that I deserve to be treated that way is a mystery. Perhaps you might commit to the idea that nobody deserves to be excluded, or unloved. Also, when I think about the people I have loved best, it isn't the pretty people or the rich people, it is those whose souls were full of love and joy and willing to share it with others. If we live long enough, we are all going to get older, and well, not pretty. I understand how it feels to hate oneself to the point where you almost feel like you are dying, I do. But you have to give yourself a chance. You are the only you that ever existed in the entire history of the universe; you are unique and that has to mean something. I am sure there are good things about yourself you haven't even had a chance to discover yet, for we all have gifts we bring to life. If we can walk, and talk, and read and write and grow, there is always hope for a good life even if we aren't beautiful (I am certainly not). I hope you have a better day today. Hugs.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

❤️ Love this

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Hi Star, when I post I say the things I am trying to tell myself as I often feel the same way the original poster does. This week, I felt so down my stomach and skin hurt, just like "Ugly" above. I often feel like it is hopeless, and like giving up too. These feelings stem back from an abusive childhood but knowing why doesn't always make it emotionally better. It is work, self care is work! It has taken me five decades to figure that out and believe it. My biggest enemy, unfortunately, is often me. I have wasted the majority of my life in crippling depression, and anxiety and I don't want to waste what time I might have left. It is nice to have so many kind, caring people here to exchange posts with, thank you.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

You are a beautiful strong soul. I’m glad you are here to help people... your life was not being wasted since it brought you to this point.

[crowningglory19]

Why? Why do you hate yourself? Was something said or done to you that caused this? Is it a chemical imbalance or hormonal imbalance? Counseling is so helpful and many churches offer it free. Also, a good thing to have a Psychiatrist test these things. Till then, here are some natural helps that have helped so many! A good multi vitamin to give your body what it needs to feel better. Esp extra magnesium to calm your mind body and spirit, magnesium malate is one of the best, mag. citrate can cause diarrhea. Almonds are a great food high in magnesium. Ginseng is great to get rid of the sticky negative thoughts that loop!! Helps so much! Get outside, barefoot and no sunscreen to get grounded and get vit. D which is a mood enhancer. Walks are great, esp w a trusted person to talk with. Hope these help you too! <3 80% of Americans are low in magnesium! YOu are worth fighting for and believing in! <3