Mratl83 where are you I need you right now?!

Where are you you?!

[Ladybug9]

I know he's online. Do you want me to let him know you need him???

[Hidden in reply to Ladybug9]

Yes please

[Ladybug9 in reply to Hidden]

On my way! BRB

[Ladybug9 in reply to Ladybug9]

I sent a message for you!

[Hidden in reply to Ladybug9]

Thank you!!

[Ladybug9 in reply to Hidden]

You are so welcome!!

[Ladybug9 in reply to Ladybug9]

I told him and he said OK so hopefully you will hear from him soon!! Please be good to yoruself!!! You are loved and needed a lot! Big Hugs.

[Hidden]

Hi Ash. I know I'm not Mrat, but I'm back if you'd like to talk to me. I was getting so bored with the television. How are you???

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Slowly improving. Still a hot mess, but coming around to reality. I hate anxiety. I truly do.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for being here.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Sure, no problem. See, Dolphin is here too. We care.💖

[Dolphin14]

R u ok?

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

Nope. Completely losing it tonight. Trying to hold myself together. It sucks.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Can I help you at all?

[Dolphin14]

I just read it's your anxiety. There's nothing worse I can totally relate to that

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

I hate this.

[Hidden]

I haven't felt suicidal thoughts in years. And I just had them for a good fifteen minutes.

[Dolphin14]

Are you any better now? Are the thoughts going away

[Hidden]

For the most part. Like you guys have no idea. Understand I don't like being attacked, I just want some REAL friends. This mess breaks my heart that I'm judged so quickly here. I've gone through this MOST of my life

[Dolphin14]

I've lived with judgement for a long time as well.

I'm trying to learn to put things into perspective. That the people that judge have the problems. Something in them makes them do that to others.

I have seen what you have gone through over the last couple days. I was really taken off guard by that pm you got. I have never read anything so nasty before.

I'm so sorry for what you have been going through.

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you, I've gone through this for so long I've become apathetic but at the same time overly emotional. I don't understand why this has to happen so much. I just need a friend too ya know.. I'm still human

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Of course you are human, sensitive and emotional. There's only so much we can take before we break. We can only be strong for so long, then the walls break down and we feel the pain.