Fight of my life

I'm in the fight of my life, I went and got drunk lastnight. I'm really sick and it hurts and this only makes it worse, I hold it all in until I'm ready to burst.

I don't know why I do it, when I told myself I wouldn't, because I know I shouldn't, but these voices inside just keep telling me to screw it.

I forgot what I did, had to look in my phone to see what was said, now I'm laying in this bed, my eyes are all red because I wish I was dead.

In my stomach there's a knot, to my friends on unlocked please help me to stop before I get caught by the cop.

I know it's going to take the man in me to stop this insanity but I really need some help, I reach out I hope my hand you'll see, because you all are like my family.

[kenster1]

hi sorry of your struggles has anyone said you had done something wrong or do you just mean sick as in having to much alcohol.

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

By sick I mean mentally ill. Not sure either one is politically correct because I don't like to be called either one to be honest.

[kenster1 in reply to Hidden]

its best to try and leave out the alcohol our heads are clouded enough and we just do ourselves more damage.

[Hidden]

👋 heyyy! I can relate to this. I've been in the spot of wanting to end my own life. In fact, I've tried it. Four times. It's not worth it dude, and if you're reaching out, I'm going to reach back. I don't know the situation you're going through, but I do know that you're looking for someone to just give you a reason and some help. So I'm going to do my best. First and foremost, I wish I could hug you, because I really feel like you need a super awesome, hold you tight to show you someone cares, kind of hug. Secondly, pain sucks. I'm not sure what kind of music you're into, but whenever I'm really upset I throw on some imagine dragons, cause the messages in their songs are usually on point for whatever I may be feeling. I know you don't know me, and I don't know you. But I have time I can give you to just listen if you need to talk ❤️❤️❤️