Trying to find help

[angelface1034]

So, just to start off yes I do have a counselor and a psychiatrist. (I take meds as well) However, I’ve been feeling the worst I have ever felt...probably stemming off the fact that I lost my job. I only see my psychiatrist once every couple of weeks and once a week with my counselor...but that’s just not cutting it...It sucks because I hear what everyone is saying about coping skills I get it, I comprehend it, and I understand where everyone is coming from..but I cant even get to the point where I’m even able to use them or tell myself certain things to get out of this...Its like my mind is completely blocked... I literally lay in my bed all day or on the couch just extremely stuck. I really want to get more help but I absolutely do not want to get admitted for in-patient ...that was a horrible experience for me. What are my options? Has anyone else been through this? I’m trying hard to keep it together while I write this but it’s pretty damn hard.

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Sometimes there just aren't too many options and you take the help you can get. I'm an almost 50 year old woman and I've been through the wringer of the mental health system. I've been on psychiatric wards many times, I've come to the conclusion that they are really just holding tanks. You don't need to be there unless you are definitely suicidal, and even when you go there, I don't understand why there is never any individual therapy. Sure you see a psychiatrist, all he does is medicate you. There are no easy answers sometimes. I wish my life was very different too. I thought by my age I would have my shit together and I don't. I apologize that maybe I'm not being very helpful to you. You are not alone. I believe there are so many people out there who are really suffering who aren't getting much help. You have to do the best you can to help yourself. You can't really get quality therapy unless you have the money to pay for it, that is reality. So much of what you get in life is what you pay for it. Sorry, I don't mean to rant. I'm going through a lot myself.

[Agora1]

Hi angelface, I've been where you are for many years. Medicated, therapy, even in-patient.

As much as I learned from these experiences, they still weren't enough. The block here is

"being stuck". Our mind cannot move forward if it is cluttered with the wrong messages.

Have you ever seen the show "Hoarders"? Well that's how are mind gets holding onto all

these unnecessary thoughts from the past. Afraid to let go just in case we need to use it.

So, all these methods that we are using can be helpful short term but they are not the answer in moving forward to a more productive and gratifying life.

I got to the point where enough was enough. I didn't like feeling drugged up, I didn't like

going into therapy and coming out feeling just as bad. It had to be something I was doing

wrong. I was listening to the therapist but not moving forward. I was taking my medication

but just hoping for a miracle drug to come along.

Then I referred back to Dr. Claire Weekes' theory on "Hope & Help for Your Nerves" She

had been the buoy that I hung onto years ago that I had forgotten about. I listened to her

videos on YouTube. A light turned on in my head. I had spent years fighting and hoping

for change which never came because I didn't use the "key" to anxiety relief. Acceptance...

A simple word but a powerful one. Accepting the thoughts, the symptoms and allowing them to float on by, do their thing and then leave me.

The more I accepted that I had Anxiety, nothing more, nothing less....I got back in control

of my life. I was no longer going to be held hostage by this "thought" that controlled my

mind and body. Working on myself and finding tools that I could use began to work.

Learning through Dr. Weekes how Anxiety works and manipulates us brought back that

power. Today, I no longer struggles with anxiety. The feeling of being back in control again

is a powerful emotion.. I now use my knowledge of what I went through to help others so

they may get to the "end of the rainbow" (as one of our great members Jeff1943) has stated

many times.

Angelface, Welcome to a caring, supportive and understanding forum...You've just take a

big step forward. xx