What am I good at?

[AK0424]

Just sitting back, working from home, like I've done since March. And suddenly I get the surge of sadness and tears. Here it comes... "What am I actually good at? What makes me worthwhile? Is there something I do that makes people proud of me? Are people proud to say they know me?" I feel like I have no idea what my purpose is. I do many things. I don't think I'm great at them. But I try. And it's hard to hear when people say positive things, I feel like they're lying, why I don't know. I hate feeling like this. I just want to feel worth it. Like people won't get tired of me and leave. Like I mean something. Guess it's just a bad day.

[Sprinkle1]

Yes it sounds like you are having a bad day. I can connect with that. I am shut in with the virus, I know I am a worth while person. I do not need to hear it from other people, although that is nice, but the world we are living in has turned upside down. There is a lot of fear, and it is keeping us isolated from each other. I am 78 and have no one near me, my brother is 3000 miles away, I called him today (as I have for several days), telling him I would like to talk to him as I am not doing so well. Life can get so tough at times, I am happy for the most part, and feel grateful as I have a nice home, no bills, my 2 lovely cats, try to be content with what you have, knowing this Will all end, but not sure when, and keep taking good care of yourself. Find good things to do for your self, I am growing a veg, herb and flower garden on my deck, I spend a lot of time on the computer, trying to help people who are hurting. I read and have found myself watching serials from when I was a teenager, I am not much of a TV watcher, I live in US so like to watch PBS they have a lot of educational programs, this educates me and keeps me out of my own misery. Yes life can get horrible at times, but you know we always come out of them.

I was born in 1942 in my grandmothers house i n England during an air raid. The war finally ended in 1945, England was devastated, it took time but it was rebuilt. Now a small England is still a world leader. We have to listen to ourselves and be strong, we have it in us, a friend of mine, told me I had a "Back Bone of Steel" A man I worked with told me I had more "Balls than most men", so yes I am strong and I will fight and be true to myself. I learnt thru therapy life is not easy, but the more we stray true to ourselves we can overcome. I read Dr. Scott Pecks book "The Road Less Traveled" and it helped me a lot, it was so good it was in the top 10 best seller list for 7 years. He tells how Buddha said "Life is suffering, but once we transcend it we reach peace", let me tell you I wanted peace, it took me another 20 years but I finally achieved it, I get up happy, go to bed happy, worry about nothing, live in the moment. I fear nothing for the most part (the cornona virus) has me concerned). So be good to yourself, know we love you are care about you. I send you Love, peace, big hugs........

[Agora1 in reply to Sprinkle1]

Sprinkle1, sending you a virtual hug with love xx

[Sprinkle1 in reply to Agora1]

Thank You Agora I need your support, take good care, love n hugs.......Sprinkle......

[Vicky_lo in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thank you so much Sprinkle 1, you definitely made my day.