masking up

[amtt]

Right now all I can feel is emptiness. I keep on telling people that I'm okay even if I'm not. I keep on smiling and laughing in front of them but I don't get to feel happiness inside me. It's actually the sleepless nights that keeps on killing me slowly but constantly. You know when you're alone in your bed and your thoughts keep on messing with your mind.

[shewolf_]

Try not hiding it ... maybe u should try to open up to someone who you think would really listen to u. It’s strong of you to mad your pain , but the strongest are the ones who can allow themselves to be vulnerable because we are human . at some point we all feel sad and hopeless. Don’t hold those feelings in you’re only prolonging your healing process . better days are comin your way

[amtt in reply to shewolf_]

I don't have someone to talk to right now. my brothers despise me and my parents disown me as their daughter. I don't even have real friends that i can call

[CaityCat in reply to amtt]

I understand feeling both alone and faking your emotions and putting up a facade. You will find people who are there for you. And if you want, I can be one of them. I have a hard time telling my parents how I feel because they blame themselves and ask if they did something wrong as parents. They want to know why I feel the way I do—and I don’t have those answers. Sometimes, the people you expect the least to be there are the ones that surprise you the most.

[amtt in reply to CaityCat]

thanks i'll message you some time

[kv3011]

Hi! You’re not alone. I promise you. All us strangers are here for you and sometimes it’s a better outlet because we all are going through such similar situations. Please message me privately if you want to talk, I can be a friend to help you.

[amtt in reply to kv3011]

that's really sweet thank you

[san_ray70]

I am an insomniac most nights I can not sleep more than 5 hours. I can not just stay in bed, I get up watch television, sometimes I fall asleep sometimes not. Some night I take valerian, last night I got 7 hours sleep despite sleeping most of the day before. Your body knows when you need sleep. years ago I tried sleeping tablets, but I did not like the efffect. I have retired so I can make up for lost sleep, even if I do not try I fall asleep during the day. Good luck, try to relax more, maybe get some fresh air.

[Myre]

I am a bit of an insomniac, and I feel alone all the time. My mom worries but that's the most she can do, my sister says I am possessed and everyone else characterizes my silence as being pompous or dumb so no you are not alone even if it may feel that way sometimes. Message me if ever you need someone to speak to, we can all get through this.