Hi all,
I have been experiencing very bad stress in my life the past week or so, and I am feeling very confused, and at the same time distrusting myself.
I am subjected to a lot of negative feedback at home, and I internalize it. It turns into me not being friendly in the world. Walking around angry at how I am treated, and worrying it will come out where it shouldn't. Also worrying I am not kind enough here. Wondering if I should leave here -- until things improve for me -- for others sake.
I can't keep track of simple daily life things, for example I am very dehydrated because I can't remember to drink water (even though I put out a bottle in the morning). I forget to eat. I have trouble making sense of simple chores.
I feel paranoid around people - for example I can't make small chit-chat at the store. I barely speak. I don't feel safe anywhere - I think it begins with feeling very unsafe at home. (My husband has anger issues. When he hurts me long enough I fight back. Fight back crazy. Frightened.)
Anyway, my question. I just tonight realized that 7-days ago my doctor advised me to cut back the dose I'm taking of an antidepressant. She had bumped it way up a couple months ago when I was going through a very bad time. (I had problems with side effects at the higher dosage.)
So is it likely that the drug reduction could be causing or contributing to how crazy I'm feeling and acting?