Depression

[Cynica]

Have been depressed for the longest time i can remember. What is the first step to fight this depression😭😭

[LoveBear]

Are you in counseling?

[RecreateMyself]

For me it was meds and therapy. I hope u feel better soon!

[Derpy_716]

Not sure if this will help, but going to try anyhow. I was on the brink of suicidal and sitting there with everything prepared - with a list, with an email to hit send on and deal with any potential aftermath, funeral, will, what to do with money, passwords, all - and in my hopeless sadness a thought arrived and kept me here like a tiny flashlight with maybe 1/2 a battery - if I end everything, I will never know what I can uniquely do to contribute and improve the world as we know it. My curiosity kept me alive. Maybe there is something you are curious about, about yourself or life that is just interesting enough to tell you that you don't know everything - yet, and maybe want to stick around. It's really a horrible feeling and hard to work through. Hope you find someone to talk / work with to make a map of how to venture out.

[Agora1 in reply to Derpy_716]

Derpy, I'm glad you are still here. Life is a learning experience and you just

learned how precious it is. xx

[Dave_H]

I was at exactly the same place last November. All the good bye's written, all the instructions spelled out, chose the method and had the equipement. Got my will notarized. I had really made a firm decision. Do you know what stopped me? Googling 'suicide survivors' and reading about what happens to the loved ones of the one committing suicide, and how it effects the rest of their lives. I did this several times. The last time I did it, something 'clicked' inside me and I decided that I could not bring myself to cause the people who love me that much pain, especially my daughters. And that was the end of it. I did say a prayer, and asked God not to allow me to regret my decision. Juries still out on that one as I am just as depressed as before.