Updates on my Life

[powrrlesspotato]

Hey there everyone, I know it’s been a long time since I’ve come here to talk, and it’s been sort of a trend for me to come back after months of vanishing.

I have a lot of news concerning life honestly. Not all of it has been great. I went on my very first plane ride in November of last year to go to San Diego. It was a very nice time and I wasn’t too worked up, surprisingly. It was nice to get out and see new places for sure. My boyfriend at the time got to come home with me and it was a nice time when he was around.

December was a decent month, I suppose. He had to leave for more training and such and he came back just before Christmas. Nice, I know, but again, too short really.

I could tell something was off in January when he left again though. Something was missing and I didn’t quite know what until the middle of the month. He was confused and didn’t know what he wanted with life, and I sort of took the brunt of the confusion, and his anger/distaste that came along with it. He wasn’t a fan of me having a nose ring, or that I had short hair. Silly things really, but it got very annoying knowing your own boyfriend wasn’t fond of you for that. It hurt me, so to speak. At the end of the month, he finally did it. He dumped me. After all that time I spent holding onto him and loving him unconditionally, he still let go. I was devastated...but, I decided I was gonna take that time to grow, and I did. I went and got hair extensions, cleared up my acne, and now I’m doing well financially too. I still have my bouts with depression and anxiety, and the PTSD on top of that, but I’m doing my best to push through and be as positive with life as I can.

I hope everyone here has been well ❤️ I love you all!