Rollercoaster emotions

[Bluzzle]

It is amazing how from day to day things can change drastically. One day I cannot focus, I am down and out, I feel worthless and basically sick. The next day, or sometimes week, I can turn around to be the complete opposite, positive and full of energy. I know this can all depend on many factors like what Im eating, if theres something especially stressful happening, how much sleep Ive gotten, and the weather. Sometimes none of these things seem to matter at all and I just feel terrible all the time. I just wish I can stay in the good mindset ALL THE TIME, but dont we all? I have always thought of myself as being split in half into almost two people, not literally, I am not claiming any split personalities. I hate how the productive me can conquer anything and then the depression and anxious me can delete all that progress and hold productive me back, pausing life and make me miss out on moments that make life worth living and keeping me from growth. Sometimes its like the good version of me is trapped inside, looking out and screaming at the bad me, desperately wanting to have some control but there is no way of letting her reach through until it is her time, and then she is left to clean up the mess.

[Vegcat]

Hi, bluzzle. I’m new to this website and looking around trying to seek out posts I relate to. It’s not easy to find the kind of posts that are spot on, but your post sounds so familiar to me. I feel like I do not have control over my emotions. I can usually tell what kind of day it’s going to be when I wake up. When I’m feeling positive, you can’t bring me down, and when I’m in the negative state, you can’t bring me up. I feel like Jekyll and Hyde. I’m currently on antidepressants that aren’t right for me (I’m working with a psychiatrist) and I take Adderall sometimes. It sounds like the mood regulation issues that come along with ADHD. In any case, I hope you find relief working with a mental health professional.

[Optimistic_22]

Hi Bluzzle

I totally understand how your feeling. That is exactly how I feel. I think the best thing is to have a journal and write your day out. Look back at good days to uplift you when your having bad days. There is some times depression makes it hard to get motivated but of you can push yourself to take a walk or exercise you’ll feel so much better. Preferably in the start of the day. Life is rough now as long as you can keep moving don’t beat yourself up. We all go through it.