Caroline Flack

[Kaytee1981]

I'm not sure if this is an odd feeling or not abd felt by others, but the death of Caroline Flack has really knocked me and I'm not sure if its something I should raise with my CPN next time I see her.

I'm not sure if its that's shes a similar age - I'm 38 shes 40yrs or that I very recently have been very, very nearly dead by suicide. Or that she was a public figure that was relatable, that my eldest daughter knows who she is and I told her. I dont know but I feel uneasy and on edge about it but I cant pinpoint why, so I havent mentioned it to anyone outside here (I'm odd enough already!) Not even sure it's that relevant to anyone else, my feeling on the situation but I just wanted to check in and that make sure my emotions/weird feelings dont cause me issues x

[Lioness4]

My guess is you relate to her as most of us do. We have all had some very real lows and thankfully we reached out or made a call or was just plain scared. Doesn’t matter. You have the right to own your feelings. Grieve her death. Write/talk about it either publicly or privately. I think to hold your feeling in (whatever it may be) will only cause you more hurt. Yes tell your provider about it. What you’re feeling is normal.

[Hisue in reply to Lioness4]

Saw her on Love Island. I think that job & her breakup & being 40, put her over the edge.

Seeing all those young people searching for romance, coupling up, etc. wears thin when you are alone She had to look perfect all the time, as well.

Very sad. Wish she had reached out.

It affected me, as well- I empathize with what you are feeling.

[kelsbels88]

Hi Kaytee

I hope you’re ok. I think because of who she was Caroline’s death has hit a lot of people even the ones who didn’t directly know her.

I hope you have the support around you of friends family and loved ones.

I’ve found it really easy in the past to spiral down the hole of negativity and doubt but I’m slowly learning that although my circle is very very small those people care about me and I mean something to them even if sometimes I don’t feel like it.

For me I found it a slow process but I now look at the little things that give me pleasure whether its being outside or flowers, watching my favourite programs or getting research on something that I’m interested in. I also found help in reading books by people like Oprah or Brene brown and Michèle Obama strong powerful women who fought against the odds to get to where they are.

I hope you find the pleasure in the small things and that you believe you are enough because Kaytee - you are enough ❤️

Sending hugs xxx

[Hidden]

Hi.

Understand how you feel. You are not alone..

what an awful scenarious...sad times x

[Timmypliskin]

I know that folks in our position tend to internalize situations like this, as it tends to feed the anxiety and anxiety will take anything it can get.

That said I dont know the answer, i wish i did, but your not alone.

I hope you feel better soon.

[Hidden]

Yes raise it with your cpn..

Sending peace x

[fauxartist]

I agree with you being able to relate to her because of your own circumstances. And the finality of someone taking their life ... when you were so close to doing the same, probably really rattles you. I would definitely talk to your therapist about it because that is a very real prospect you were so close to.....there is a lot of emotion there for you. ‘What if’ is a really big question….many of us have been there too, but at that moment in time…we don’t really see any other way out. But when we are now looking back on that moment we were in at the time….I can say I’m glad I’m still here.