Letting it out

[Bluzzle]

Right now is one of those moments that everything seems to pour out of me. Ive learned to sustain myself for so long, and right now I am just letting it all out. I decided to help myself stay afloat by posting on here and reading relatable posts on here, which is new for me, but it seems to help me to not dive in deeper. As I read and write posts the tears just continuously fall, and I cycle through moments of breaking down. I dont post this to search for sympathy, rather to let my thoughts out and to hope to connect with someone who can understand. My head is throbbing and I feel sick, but I know I am not really sick sick. When I must be around others in this state of mind that is what I tell people, Im feeling sick, but I dont disclose to them its from what Im feeling mentally. Its amazing how your mental state can affect your body so drastically. Tonight is one of those nights that I know I must let the emotions have their moment to take over so I can start my day fresh and hope for a better mind tomorrow.

[Bluzzle]

Its just the stress of constantly having so much to get done, work, school work, assignment after assignment. It feels like I am weak sometimes and cant handle as much as others and it breaks me down after a while, plus my body is not what Id like it to look like and I feel so lonely sometimes and my negative self-talk takes over. Its an up and down process, I just try to remind myself of what is realistic and what is just my brain telling me lies and trying to keep me from moving forward. thank you for your concern! Is there a specfic reason for yours? Is something physically going on that may cause that constant nausea?