I should be happy.

[puppypancakes3]

I feel like I should be happy. I have a wonderful family, great friends, an amazing fiancee and yet, I still hate myself and hate this life to the point where I don't want to live it anymore. I'm anxious and stressed all the time. I want to spend all day in bed. I have thoughts of ending it all. I just got engaged, my family is happy for me, I go to a great school, I'm going to get a great job, but I am stressed about each and every one of these things every day. I tell myself I'm not worthy of these things, I worry about my family, that something might happen to them, I worry about the future. It is a constant state of anxiety, and I just want it all to go away. I should be happy. Shouldn't I?

[Hidden]

Please. Bear with me ok??

Promise if I’m wrong u won’t be insulted just say naw that’s not me ??

Success can be suiuuuuper scary too

U re dreams are coming true but

I’m unworthy

Pleae tell me why I might feel that way and what might jhelp

Do I feel selfish

Do I feel I’m

Getting a goid life and others aren’t

Please help me undrstand why even though I worked hard for a fiancée and career why do I feel bad about it coming true

Big changes

The new unknown?

Remember

U weren’t given these things

U

Earned them

Help

Me understand why I might feel this way

Take care

[puppypancakes3 in reply to Hidden]

The thing is, I don't know why I'm so unhappy. I think that's just the nature of depression. No matter how great things may be going, I'll still be depressed. Nothing, neither medication nor therapy, will ease the pain.

[Hidden in reply to puppypancakes3]

Ok how I feel is how u feel

We are here and do undrstand as much as one human can undrstand another

Truly sorry yur pain and suffering