Struggling cannot get into see therapist this week

Hi everyone, I see a therapist weekly. I am being treated for PTSD and depression and having suicide ideas. She has two offices. I recently refused to go to main office because there are too many triggers there and surrounding there. I feel unimportant. I need support. I do not feel worthy. I’d rather take care of someone else. Because I am not even sure I could take it the help I need, but I sure can dish it out.

[LadyZen]

When I was seeing a therapist weekly for PTSD and depression, I eventually went on medication because the pain from therapy was so intense. Has your therapist recommended seeing a doctor for medication? I'm no longer on medication and was able to wean off of it after recovering from the trauma.

[Hidden in reply to LadyZen]

Hello, thanx for responding. I am on meds. 30 years of med changes now. I have 4 different meds I take now I decided to just put up with. I’m sick of the weening, waiting changing , side effects etc, I spazzed in EMDR sessions with professional who was certified after being also treated by someone who was not certified and only read an article. ( I was unaware of this) I am comfortable with my current therapist, but I do rely on my weekly sessions, I honestly have no one else to talk to. I trust no one. But I guess I am trying now here in desperation.

[Hidden in reply to LadyZen]

I am terrified I will always be haunted by what they did

[LadyZen in reply to Hidden]

I'm glad you're here to vent. Some times that helps to make it to the next session.

[Msheatherlady]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. It's important to remember though that you can't help others If you're not taking care of yourself! I'm not sure if you're on meds or not but with PTSD and depression they can be helpful initially along with working with a therapist. You are important! Never forget that!

[Hidden in reply to Msheatherlady]

Thanks for taking a moment to respond and offer care. Yes, on meds. Your comment is appreciated. I will come back and read it again this evening. Thanks again.

[Msheatherlady in reply to Hidden]

You’re welcome! Glad I was able to be even just the slightest bit of help