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[Mumma_h]

My beautiful amazing son developed Tourette's syndrome at age 9,(often starts around this age) . He was never understood ,he was rejected (even by family) and so begun his downward spiral to where he is today. My heart broken ,lonely ,miss understood young man is now Home less and I can't find him . He's been brought by police( after major search es for him) or ambulance dozens of times to the ER with suicide attempts and never once admitted,they always say he's fine, always. I've rung many many many mental health organisations ,doctors, hospitals , psychiatrist and all I ever get is another phone number and passed on but never once has he had appropriate therapy ever. I'm confused ,bewildered and believe each doctor thinks someone else will deal with him but no one ever ever does. I've watched my happy ,loving , funloving confident little boy to an angry , depressed,lonely young man . Suicide prevention is talked about constantly,on tv,amongst friends, family..... Every where .....yet there was a NO help at all for mine. I don't understand!!! He had to leave the family home , my home,because he had a huge breakdown and smashed up the house . How do I finally let my son go, how does a mother do that ??? I don't know how to live without him . I don't know where he is and my family and friends arent interested in our repeating story anymore. A Friend of mine took him in but threw him out when he threatened suicide . The rug just got pulled out from under me . Can't sleep,can't rest til I know he's ok . I would love prayer if anyone would like to ,I can't pray anymore x

[Hidden]

Please God protect this precious son of yours and his loving mother. Help them to find peace and safety in your arms. Give them the strength to keep holding on and to bring them together again someday. Amen.

[Mumma_h in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou,just what I needed,but unfortunately god hasn't fixed this too hard basket problem. Im a Christian,but I simply can't pray like i use to anymore, nothing ever ever Changes . I know better,so I should be praying more ,I just can't do it ,so silly !! So thankyou very very much . A perfect prayer for me ❤️🌈

[Mumma_h in reply to Hidden]

I just wanted you to know I think god heard your prayer and answered. He showed up at his grandparents,I doubt help be able to stay there but maybe . Maybe a turning point for him .maybe god has this and it's all in his plan to heal him . I didn't sleep,I kept thinking maybe he's already gone and taken his life. Thankyou a milliion for your prayer🌈🤗 would it be too much to ask for one more 😬that somehow someway hel be ok again and this night mare will finally get sorted

[Hidden in reply to Mumma_h]

I agree. I don't go to church but I am Christian and I felt like I needed to pray for you. Its not something I would usually do in a forum. I cried when I typed it.

Lord, please watch over this family torn and bring some resolve in accordance with your plan. Give mother a happy place in her heart and the awareness that her son will be cared for under your watch as always. Amen.

[Mumma_h in reply to Hidden]

Me too,i haven't been for ages but I run into people because Im the church cleaner. I still believe though. I appreciate the prayer more than you can imagine. Thankyou very much 💕

[sweetiepye in reply to Mumma_h]

The two of you are sharing this heart breaking circumstance, no one else is affected in quite the same way. You must be together, no one else can possibly understand what it is to live with this. Your son needs you. I'm not criticizing you but how else will he survive it. The church where you work, will they help you in any way? Speak to the Pastor.

Father, If anyone understands a Mother's pain and sacrifice you do. Please show mercy to this Mother and Son and guide them through this affliction. Let them know your love and peace and give them strength. In your holy name, I pray. Amen

[Mumma_h in reply to sweetiepye]

Oh thankyou!!!! One of the hard parts is I have two other children at home 17 and 19 . Because this has happened so many times and have been there when he's absolutely lost it and tore up the house they don't want him back at home . The last time I let him back I found out they were basically planning to runaway for lack of better words ,and again tears my mummy heart apart. We're close and they're wonderful kids and supportive to me and they'll feel like I'm betraying them if I let him back. Amazing ly I spoke to my son tonight and he opened up to me ,he's in a bad depression,which Ive known for ages ,and our conversation went well. I told him over and over how much I love him and I'm there all the way and will fight this with him. He's agreed to let me take him to the doctors tomorrow and he begged me to come home and I basically said yes but the others don't know,they might leave or actually stop talking to me. I'm thinking of holding a family meeting with all the kids and tell them we need to love and support him ,but is that too controlling ? I even thought about reminding them of how Jesus left his flock to get back just one lost sheep ,that's how important each of us are ,don't know,I have no idea what to do ,I wish so bad I did. Tonight I will be praying desperately ,I think god has been with us the last 24 hrs so I must pray again!!!! Thankyou for your understanding,most advice I get is to just let him fend for himself so hel grow up . P,s no criticism taken,I like constructive criticism.

[sweetiepye in reply to Mumma_h]

Ask yourself this...who will do better on their own? Your troubled son or the two healthy ones? The other thing is to talk to them as you suggested and tell them how this is breaking your heart. No Mother should have to choose between her children.Your son didn't do anything to deserve this , it could just as easily been one of the others. Wouldn't they want their brother to help them. Families are meant to love and help one another. Has your son had any therapy ? Maybe you could make a deal with him, you'll let him come home but if he gets out of control he'll have to leave. If your other boys tease or bate him, they leave. If they all don't behave , you get to leave. lol

[Mumma_h in reply to sweetiepye]

Thankyou for taking the time to respond, really appreciated!!!! It's really helped actually! I agree with you but so many people have said just kick him out of the house to grow Up,and even the hospital s won't help him so I think everyone around me thinks I do too much him ,but he's soooo deppres Ed ,I know he is ,iguess I should trust my own judgement sometimes,I always think I'm wrong about everything . His outbursts aren't tics (involuntary movements) caused by the Toure ttes ,they never ever bait or tease him but they're rude when I can see him trying so hard to show them love ,they're just over it ,cos he's caused so much chaos . Feeling stronger about this ,but what if he goes crazy again, shouldn't I protect my daughter? (He's never hit or physical ly hurt us or even threatened it ) see here I go again, not knowing what to do . I'm sure one second and then not the next ,got to get it together. Feels like I'm having to choose between my children. I think you're right though ,and I can do this . It's been such a long hard road ,so tired . He has to come home ,so I have to put on my big mummy pants and take control of the situation ( I think lol) and he has agreed to go to therapy,amazing !!! Asked me to book appointment, he is in such a bad deppresion. He even cries a lot which is not like him at all ,he was the happiest and such a confident little boy ,cute in every way , biggest heart ,it's literally soul wrenching. Thanks again x

[mydog56]

i understand what happened and what is going on with you both i hope it gets better soon.

[Mumma_h in reply to mydog56]

Hello my dog56 ,Very coincidental that you msgd . My son has been missing for 3 days , ( and I posted that over a year ago . unfortunately I do presume the worst . I opened my phone and your msg was there . Thankyou for a lovely reply, strange timing yet timely too 💕

[mydog56 in reply to Mumma_h]

i am so sorry,