Things are weird

[Evelynann3]

About a month and a bit ago I asked my partner for a seperation. Which is something I need. He was cheating on me while I was planning our wedding and I was losing a grandparent to a horrible disease. And I made my self believe I could work through this.

I can't and I knew I couldn't but we had just gotten married and bought a house so I felt like I had gotten trapped. I wish I could have walked away then. It feels like I have been living a lie for 3 years. He never was that great of a guy always made me feel like I was never enough I could never be enough.

One day it was like I just woke up and couldn't do it anymore. And I guess right now I'm just not doing alright. I can't leave yet not making enough to be able to leave. I want to. I need to tell my family I need to make it real.

[kenster1]

hi and welcome to you sorry to hear of your situation hopefully you can find away that takes you out the situation.

[Rick1on1]

First thing to remember is dont blame yourself or think that you have wasted 3 years.

Yes, maybe it would have been better not getting married especially if the cheating and belittling was already evident but you may have needed the emotional support during that time and that is ok. You gave it a shot and now you have a better idea of the kind of partner you need.

Facing your family with this news will take some courage and I hope they will be supportive. If not, keeping posting here and you will get a kind word, a prayer and some good vibes from people all over the world. You will not be alone.

It's important to leave though as being in each other's faces all the time, is not going to allow to move on and heal. Do this asap.

Good luck!