I feel like I’m missing a part of me, literally.

[Adeli]

I was (finally) diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression about a year and a half ago but I’ve been suffering from it for almost 3 years.

3 years ago my gf and I “took a break” and unfortunately never recovered from it but she wasn’t only my gf, she was (over all) my best friend since middle school (I’m 24 now) and honestly, right now, 3 years later, what I miss the most in this entire world is not being able to talk to her. I wasn’t emotionally stable to keep the friendship with her and now is just too messy and crappy.

I haven’t been the same ever since.

Yes I have good friends and I’m very thankful for them but... there’s no one like your best friend. I just miss her a lot. No matter what, I always feel alone. Words can’t describe how much it hurts and sucks.

[pink83737]

Someone new will come along and make you happier than she ever did! Have hope, there are plenty of fish in the sea 🌊🐠🐟🐡

[Adeli in reply to pink83737]

Yeeah but, there's only one best friend and after 9 years of inseparable friendship, is just hard.

But thanks.

[Dolphin14]

I had a best friend for ten years. I was lost when the relationship stopped.

I grieved the loss and had to move on.

[Adeli in reply to Dolphin14]

I'm still lost. Haven't gotten around to the moving on part yet.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Adeli]

It takes time to process and grieve.

I'm sorry for the pain you are going through it really hurts.

[Adeli in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you. I’m glad someone understands.

I hope you don’t mind me asking but, how long did it took you to move on (I know everyone’s different) and how did you do it?

[Dolphin14 in reply to Adeli]

Honestly I would say a total of two years to fully accept she was gone from my life.First was just total shock. I thought we would be friends till we were old in the nursing home together lol. We used to joke about that.

I was so lost and so sad without her. She was such an important part of my life that the grief was unbearable some days. Then things began to settle a bit but something would happen in my life and I still wanted to call her to tell her the news. I knew I couldn't do that and it made me sad all over again.

We did meet after about ten years. Went out to dinner with our spouses. She wanted to start a new relationship and I couldn't do it. Too much time had gone by. Our lives were on different paths. I just couldn't see it working again. I also didn't want to feel anything of it didn't work.

All is good now. I see it as a part of my history for that time in my life. We were together for a reason and life ended our friendship. I remember all the good times we had. I have different friendships now.

[Adeli]

Oh... that was very mature of you. I gotta say I admire you so much and hope one day I can be where you are.

Thank you for sharing and making me know that it’s actually posible.