Irrelevant

[JMB1989]

My depression and anxiety are hitting me again. I am on a overnight shift. The sleep deprivation increases the symptoms. I am miserable. The thoughts of hopelessness and sorrow wont subside. I dont know how long I can continue to work all these hours. If I stop. I lose everything I have worked for in the last 15 years.

[Dolphin14]

I know that feeling very well. I worked overnights. Had a good paycheck and burned out from my job.

In the end I learned the money isn't worth it.

I hardly slept, had no family time and each year as I got older it got harder and harder.

Any chance you can change positions within the same company? Keep your same base rate pay scale but work normal hours?

[JMB1989 in reply to Dolphin14]

I work 2 jobs. I have for 29 years. These two current jobs. My fulltime day job I have had 18 years. My part time overnight job 10 years. I need both incomes to survive. My wife left me 3 minths ago. The bills are in my name. So i will continue to work until i fail. Then i do not know what will come of me. I am irrelevant.

[Dolphin14 in reply to JMB1989]

I don't think you are irrelevant. Sounds like you're a hard worker and stressed out.

Take care of yourself.

[JMB1989 in reply to Dolphin14]

I am becoming irrelevant. My family are all deceased. I work too much for friends. My wife left. My jobs are becoming obsolete. I am being replaced by online technology. I have no marketable skills anymore. My medical issues are severe. I am irrelevant.

[Dolphin14 in reply to JMB1989]

😢

I'm sorry things are so hard for you.