I don't think I matter as a person. I know I reach out on here but I feel it's a waste of time. I have no ambition to live but I can't go through with suicide, I'm just stuck watching the world go as I sit sad. I just wish I was never born.
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Oh dear...
I'm so sorry you feel this way. You do matter! Have you told your therapist that you feel this way?
Llama00 in reply to
No I haven't.
in reply to Llama00
If I were you this would be high up on my list of things to mention. I am so sorry you feel this way; you deserve to feel better!
Llama00 in reply to
I don't know how to bring it up or if it will change anything.
in reply to Llama00
Tell her what you post above. I think it sums things up, don't you?
Llama00 in reply to
Alright I'll try to.
in reply to Llama00
It takes courage to reach out. It helps to drop the weight. Tell someone. What do you have to lose ?
Llama00 in reply to
I've spoken to my therapist about some of this but I have no family or anyone I would tell it would just make it worse
in reply to Llama00
It evolves...it changes....I understand if maybe you are in a situation with no support but you have support here and elsewhere if you seek it. You don’t have to be the only one thinking of death and despair. Many of us have been there before. Some of us for a very long time. ❤️🙏
Please don’t think that you don’t matter!! You do to me & I haven’t even met you in person yet!! 💞💞but you’re on here reaching out, you a human with a heart and emotions that is hurt- so yes you definitely do matter!!!!🌻🌸💕💗I am grieving very badly right now for my little who was my best friend and fury baby companion I don’t knw how I can go on & live without her????
Sorry for your loss.
Thank you - it’s just soo unreal so unfair & painful I’ve had her soo long since a tiny sweet puppy and she’s the best dog dog ever- cutest personality cutest doggy- don’t knw how can I do life now???? She was supposed to live soo many more yrs with me
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I'm so very sorry for your loss! You know, when we lost the dog I grew up with, I made a scrapbook. I asked my mom for all pictures of Buddy and made a scrapbook. It spanned his whole life, from puppyhood to old age.
hurtingheart1 in reply to
That’s a really beautiful thing to do!! I’m really not sure I’m ready to do anything like it yet but maybe sometime if it could help I’ll try remember your idea thank you
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You're welcome. Oh sure, I totally understand!! An idea for only when you're ready, of course. It might help you to remember the good times you've had. I had lots of fun putting it together. It jogged lots of happy memories. I remember pasting a couple pictures of Buddy helping me pack for college, for example.
Also, your fur-baby is not sick or hurting in heaven. She is having fun running and jumping with the other dogs.
hurtingheart1 in reply to
Yes I like to think of her just on a really long vacation she decided to take with out me !!!😱🥺😞😂-where they were offering soo much delicious all you can eat buffets and food and she counted refuse& sadly I know her she would choose that over me -thanks a lot😖😓💔💔💔I’ll miss her soo bad but she’ll be good at peace no pain& I’ll see her again sometime when she’s back it’ll just be soo hard and painful though in meantime I don’t know how I’ll deal well without her here???🥺🥺😣😂😞😰
in reply to hurtingheart1
Ha! Love that!!😂
My husband and I had a dog named Jenny. She was the first dog we had as a couple. She is memorialized in a nice picture frame with her paw print in clay. She loved food, so guess where her picture is? In the kitchen next to the food shelf.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Praying for you.
Thank you I truly need that soo much💞I love this dog soo very very much can’t imagine someone could love more than this???!!😞💔
Dear I am sorry you feel that way but we have to b strong and I feel his everyday and even worse
I'm told I have to be strong a lot but I don't see why. No matter if I'm weak or strong my life is terrible.
Why is it so terrible?
Are you unable to change your situation?
Are you unable to move out?
I guess you can't find a job?
No job, no friends, never been close to my family and I dont want to change that. When I had a job I was still so miserable I quit, I'm also unable to move out. There's nothing in my life that I like.
Oh no. You seem stuck in depression too. I completely understand. You are worth everything. Keep hope. We need to keep hope.
I have no hope at all that my life will change.
Oh no!! Are you taking meds?
I just started almost 2 weeks ago.
Could you be experiencing side effects of the new meds?
Nothing's changed I always feel this way even before the meds.
in reply to Llama00
Hey Llama,
I hear you using words like "nothing" and "never". I think this is what CBT (or is it DBT?) calls "Black or White" thinking. With this kind of thinking it's either this way or that way; there is no room for grey words like "some things" or "sometimes". How about working on thinking in some greys? Life is seldom black and white; there are always greys. Your therapist can help you with this if you'd like to work on this (again, this is just a suggestion).
CBT, if you're not familar with it, stands for Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and attempts to change how we think about things, situations, etc. DBT stands for Dialectical Behavioral Therapy and attempts to change our inner dialogue.
Llama00 in reply to
She's told me about cent before but last time I was there I started emdr therapy. There isn't any grey areas in my life I'm always alone and sad. The only change is how sad I am at the time.
in reply to Llama00
I've heard about that from my mom. She found it helpful. I hope you do as well. Good luck with it!
What meds? Me Paxil, abilify.
I have bad depression. But I’m going to force myself to do things.
Hi- You do matter. Please talk to your therapist and mention to him/her about how you exactly feel. I hope you will get the help you need to stay strong. I’m so sorry you are having a rough time. Feel free to share anytime.
Online support groups can help you to feel less lonely. One of my sisters was diagnosed with anxiety and she got better through counselling and a support group. I hope you will feel better soon. I pray for God’s peace and comfort to surround you.
Keep us posted, we are here for each other.
Can you remember the last time you were truly happy? Even if it’s just a moment?
What were you doing in that moment?
Llama00 in reply to
No I can't remember ever being truly happy.
Truth is -
You do matter.
I just don't agree. Thanks for being kind though.
Why don't you agree? What happened to make you feel like this? Do you want to talk about it?
All Life is Precious
You are Precious
❤️
Just my entire life, I've never thought I mattered and it's true. Home, school, anywhere.
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