Suck at life

I'm anxious and depressed and I suck at life

[Starrlight]

((((((((Hug)))))))) so sorry... do you want to talk, Slushy?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Sure

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

So what do you think is bothering you?

You said anxiety and depression. Anything else going on? I’m sorry you are hurting.

[Starrlight in reply to Starrlight]

I find myself isolating because it’s just easier sometimes.

[Puck105 in reply to Starrlight]

I can relate.

[Starrlight in reply to Puck105]

(((((((Hug))))))

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I just have a lot of pressure in my life right now. I'm having thyroid issues which can be very hard to deal with if you dont have a good doctor. I've missed six months of work and could possibly lose my job. I started meds for hypothyroid a few months ago and felt immediately better but I was also taking a low dose of sertraline. I wanted to see if it was just levothyroxine or sertraline that was making me feel better so I got off sertraline. Then I started to feel bad again. Then i got back on sertraline a few weeks ago and just starting to feel stable. I felt like a sense of derealization for about a week but no major panic attacks which I've had in the past. So I'm thinking the levothyroxine makes the sertraline work a lot better and faster so I'll have to stay on it for now. I also may have celiac disease but never could get a valid blood test because I was too afraid to eat gluten for 6-8 weeks because gluten may be the root cause of my anxiety. I'm getting more answers I just get frustrated when I'm not as happy as I could be. I've spent most of my life being miserable but I felt very energized and lively when I first started taking levothyroxine so I feel like that is a big clue and I'm finally on the right track to being happy. Right now I just feel really lonely though and tense. Hopefully it will pass soon when I get my thyroid meds right. I've only been on sertraline for about two weeks so I'm hoping to feel much better in these next few weeks.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Keep us updated? I hope test results and meds will help in the process of feeling healthier.

[50percentMe]

Dear Slushy47 - The part of your title "Suck at Life" and "...I suck at life" is worrisome to me. The reason: I've been there. I know when I make a blanket state me such as "I suck" is when I'm so overwhelmed at what I feel is a conglomeration of failures swirling around in a cesspool of emotions. Does this sound like what you're going through? Perhaps you can pick one aspect in particular that you feel is a contribution to your "pile of suck" and our support group can discuss it with you. I can share with you how I feel "I suck at life because I made poor choices in major decisions". Because of this, I've made myself a house of cards that has collapsed and is a flat pile of nothing to show for my best efforts thus bringing on depression and anxiety.

Would you like to expand and share more about what's happening to you?

[sweetiepye in reply to 50percentMe]

A very insightful response. I'm glad I came across it. Pam

[Hidden in reply to 50percentMe]

My anxiety and depression comes from more of a biological origin I'm finding out, but still it results in tons of failures and missed opportunities. Inability to connect with others and feel loving. I just feel exhausted and tense right now. I avoid interacting with people and just feel like I'm drowning in a cesspool while everybody else just goes on with their lives. Like I'm in this weird space where I'm not alive but not dead either. Just suffering.

[50percentMe in reply to Hidden]

I just read your post on your medical issues. I'm so sorry. It makes things worse if you don't have a support system (That's what I call a person or people) that you can count on to be with you during this difficult time. Hopefully, the medical staff can find something that will work for you soon and stabilize your body chemistry . Keep us posted and hang in there. Use our group for support if you don't have one. Keep writing. I find spilling my "cup running over"having an opportunity to express my pain helps. Thinking about your situation instead of wallowing in mine all the time is therapy for me. We all need a break to focus on something besides what's grinding in our lives. We're all hoping to find that magic wand. I thank you for sharing.

[Puck105]

Hang in there. I’ve been having panic attacks for the past two weeks and crying a lot. I meditated, read, and exercised. That’s what worked for me.

[artistinresidence]

Theres a saying in recovery...if you work it.. it works. Find a program to join..offer to volunteer...think of helping others and you will find you will feel better. Staying separate brings more separation. We cant see a big change until we make small changes. I believe you will feel amazing once you begin.

I knew a lady who stood at the walmart door outside and opened it saying good afternoon to each person that was entering. She met so many people each day. She said it changed her life.

Thinking of others fills a void inside of us.

We are here for you. What we share its ultimately up to you to take or leave it.

A blessed day to you.

A

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Oh I suck at life too🙋‍♀️!

I fabulously suck at life. I call my grown children so we can laugh at the stupid thing I did.

I’m good at work. Damn good. I walk out those sliding doors and I’m like a hurricane to myself and those around me. And, I’m constantly hurting myself.

I own it. I’m too old to get better. Screw it. Let someone else follow behind me and pick up the pieces. There’s a lot of shaking heads behind me.

Oh well......