I’m not human

[Thelonewolf22]

I hate everything but it’s illegal to commit suicide. Wtf

[Hidden]

Hi would you like to talk? I'm here for you...

Dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy and hugs for you!

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Hidden]

There is none of that in my life everyone leaves and all I want is love and family and impact to change the world. I accept who I am and won’t change for anyone but there are many things that I find embarrassing about myself and I’m constantly made to feel like I don’t belong no one will stay with me and my dreams are pointless and they will never become true. I don’t care if I’m 20 I know I want to get married and have kids. That’s what I want. I don’t want to bounce between girl to girl

[Hidden in reply to Thelonewolf22]

It just may not be your time right now...you never know what the future holds for you...Hang in there and focus on your positives. You're special there's only one you!

I wish you all the best. I'm here for you.

Dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy and hugs!

[Thelonewolf22]

I don’t want to be stuck in this rut I wish I was strong enough to just snap out of it like everyone else. I got therapy take my meds but nothing good happens and when it does it’s taken away in the next two or three days

[hypercat54 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

Like everyone else? We can't either and we are all human x

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to hypercat54]

I’m not human because everyone just leaves me

[hypercat54 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

What no family or friends?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to hypercat54]

I can’t hold a relationship over 3 months, friends all just leave eventually, and my mom and dad do so much for me but their money doesn’t go to good use because I’m such a failure

[Sunf7ow3er]

I am fighting not to reach that level. I had a brother who let his depression commit murder/suicide. I would not want to be selfish and inflict any pain the way it was inflicted when this tragedy happen to my family and I. Took several years to overcome it. To now it still hits a nerve. I want to fight this and not be another fucken statistic!!!!

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Sunf7ow3er]

No one would care about me. They’d get over it in 2 weeks max

[Sunf7ow3er in reply to Thelonewolf22]

That’s the thing. I’m sure my brother thought the same. Till today I still cry about it. His anniversary is coming up December 25. It’s tough. Many don’t understand depression, nor do they know how to deal with someone going through it. You must be willing to help yourself too

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Sunf7ow3er]

It’s not like I’m not trying to help myself! I got to therapy and take meds but nothing seems to work. People keep leaving

[Sunf7ow3er in reply to Thelonewolf22]

People will leave to make room for better company.

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Sunf7ow3er]

What better company? Idk where they are

[Sunf7ow3er in reply to Thelonewolf22]

Switch your thinking, instead of thinking of the negatives seek the positives .

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Sunf7ow3er]

No one would care about me. They’d get over it in 2 weeks max

[Almostatwitsend]

I guess hang in there. You aren’t alone in how you feel. I’ve been struggling for over 10 years and sometimes I feel like I just don’t have the energy (or any energy for that matter) to fight anymore.

[pink318]

Hello,

I’m very sorry that you are facing a hard time.

Do you have a support group that you can meet in person? If you don’t have, you might want to consider joining a group, it will help you to feel less lonely and you can learn coping skills from them. Please stay strong. I hope this forum will be a blessing to you and you will get the support you need.

Please keep us posted. Praying for you for comfort and you will have your heart’s desires.

[wantobefree]

The first thing you should do if you want to find someone, is find yourself. You keep talking about that everyone wants to leave you and abandon you and that no one cares for you but you are doing the same. You are abandoning yourself!! Don’t be like everyone else!