Can't Take Much More

[Supergirlfan]

I feel so alone right now. I can't cheer myself up and I can't stop crying. The other day, my Godmother's son moved into his own apartment and she and my mom rented a Uhaul van to help. Well, the van only had 2 seats and they were going to make me ride in the back which is not only dangerous it's illegal here. It's also cold. My mom said all my reasons were logical and said I didn't have to go, my Godmother on the other hand who loves to call me names, put me down, and make fun of my weight, called me a spoiled brat and told me to stay in my room all day. Neither of them has said a word to me since they got back 2 days ago almost. I feel like they hate me for some reason, like I've done the most horrible thing. I have Social Anxiety, I don't have a job but I look everyday for something and I don't have a car. I have nowhere else to go and I am running out of hope. What little self esteem and confidence I have they continue to take it from me. I just don't know what to do anymore.

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Im here

[jjsangel]

Letting them “make” you feel bad is them controlling you. Is a technique narcissists use. Don’t let them take control of your feelings. Your mind will be next. Be careful. Anxiety is horrible, it still gets the best of me and I’ve been dealing with it for 20 years. Be careful, stay strong, and remember smiling makes you feel 2inches better.

[prince_cess]

You are not alone. Continue finding job. And I know its hard to ignore what others are saying but just love yourself...