New to this. Just diagnosed with massive depression with psyotic features. Dont know what to do. Kept rubbing the knives while washing them really dont see way out. Just lost.
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New and lost
Hello & Welcome
You have found somewhere to come where hopefully you will not feel so lost and alone , as you will see so many of us are suffering to and relate and yet we somehow find ways on how to live our life's
For some it can be a relief to get a diagnosis as before we do we just feel we are going mad and for others it can feel frightening as we fear well what will happen next , what is my future ? well with the right support it will be a good one
Did you get any support of any kind with your diagnosis ?
If not I would ask what support you can get
Meanwhile I hope knowing you have somewhere to come and talk will help
As other members log on I am sure you will get lots of good advice
Take Care x
Thank you. I am scared. The voices and hallucinations arnt fun. I see somebody for help. See doc on monday for new drugs. If i have to take meds to feel happy, dont see the point. My world is out of control and i cant stop it.
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I didnt want to take meds either. But after suffering for 10 years I decided to give it a try. The key is finding a doctor you are comfortable with. They should be able to suport you and your needs. Just remember meds can be temorary. It all depends. Im giving mine a chance to work and learning new coping skills. The most important keys have been talking to someone and focusing on self love. Baby steps. We can only live one day at a time while we are trying to heal from our illness.
Best of luck. And welcome🙂
Thanks. I have been on antidepressants for 5 years now. All of a sudden this got alot worse. Not sure why or what happened. A night in er and argueing with everybody thought i would try counseling. Just dont know anymore. All the bad thoughts are taking over more.
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Sometimes we need an increase or a change. Clearly something is happening that is causing these feelings of fear and doubt. Sounds like you have been fighting this battle and taking the proper steps. I know its hard to see the sunshine, but feel proud. Youre on this site which is a very positive step as well. You can get through this.
Hello
It is alright to be scared , we all get these feelings , they can feel over powering but they do pass
I agree it is not fun at all but there is every point in taking medication if needed
When someone has heart problems and they need medication to give them a better life and help their heart to be healthy they take it !
Mental Health is no different , it is the brain that is poorly and needs some medication to help it get better , so why would we not take it if we need it ?
You are feeling low at the moment . your anxiety will be making your thoughts worse , you will feel your world is out of control but these medications will help you to get control back so there is another good reason to take them
Two days before you see the Doctor , that will go quick , and focus on that and please go and see them and accept the help they are offering , at least give it a chance because you owe that to yourself and you also deserve it
You can do this and slowly but surely life will get better , it is early days , but take a day at a time and the future will get brighter x
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Agree with all of this.
I often felt like I was spiraling. I had no control over anything. But life has changed durastically. Hold tight to hope. Life is unpredictable, which is terrifying.... but it is also a beautiful journey. Months from now you may look back and this will all feel like just a time you survived! Once you take more steps you will feel like youre gaining control over your illness. Stay strong.
Thank you i hope you are right. I am trying but i dont know if its enough. Feel like iam on my own.
I generally dont scare easily. But i dont know whats happening and family dont really understand. They think i make this up.
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Family..... ugh. I have both extreme sides. My dad believes mental illness can be dealt with alone by just "getting over it" and "not stressing out" while my mom has always pushed me to do counseling and getting on prescriptions. I found the happy medium by making up my mind for myself. It took me a few years but I started counseling again. After a year of talk therapy my anxiety was still so bad I was barely sleeping or functioning. So I asked what my options were. Now Im on a low dose twice a day. Its low enough that I can barely feel any different, all I know is I can sleep great and I can cope. Day by day I feel stronger. And to think, I could have felt much better all along....🌻
At the end of the day, you have to do what feels right.
By the way Im 31. I know family can still influence us even as were adults. Ive been dealing with family dynamics a lot while learning to cope. You have to tune them out and focus on you. After all, you know what feels right or wrong better than ANYONE else.
Im rooting for you fordguy. And thats saying something... im more of a cheverlet girl! 😆
Thanks for listening. Greatly appreciated even if you like chevys. If you wanna talk hit me up. Going to try and sleep maybe that will be better.
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We could all use a lil more smiles... life doesnt have to be so miserable all the time
You are so right. Love the name sunshine. It just makes you feel good.
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My private messaging is always open.
☆Sunshine
Dont know how to do that
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Click on the persons profile pic then hit messege button.
Amen on the chevy, made me smile
If i was close, i would join you for coffee. I was a auto tech for more then 30 years. Mug, cup, thermos was always on toolbox.
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My bother is a mechanic. I know many who work on cars. Right now Im trying to sell my volkswagon. I wish I took better care of my chevy lumina. But that care is long gone.
Hey i did try private so you know. Dont know if i did right
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Hi fordguy,
That is pretty typical, most of us on this site have had family that just don't understand and yes, think it's in your head or that you want attention. If you can convince your parents to go with you to an appointment, I'm sure your doctor would be glad to educate them and mostly explain what you're going thru.
Hopefully you'll have a positive outcome and you start getting the support you so rightfully deserve.
Hugs,
Marie
Hello. Its not my parents. My life is very complicated. I dont think people would want to read dynamics
People that don't suffer very rarely understand as this is something that cannot be seen only felt by those that are suffering , that is why these Communities are so good as we all know where you and others are coming from
I know it hurts when family are like this towards you but the main thing is that you start to understand what you are suffering with and how to cope , not them and if they choose not to believe you then they must think the Doctors are liars then as they are the professionals and they have diagnosed you , maybe you could ask them why they think this is not real after a Doctor has diagnosed you ?
A lot of us have never experienced been frightened till something comes a long that does make us feel this way , I doubt many people even without anxiety have never managed to get through life without feeling some kind of fear
Remember , there is nothing to fear but fear itself , which is an emotion and feeling but one that will eventually go away , it does not make you a weak person feeling as you do but deep down you are strong and you will get through this x
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I went through a time last year I got real dark, almost drove into concrete overpass on purpose and tested a gun in my mouth dark. Then I got on here, I did not give up, I did get meds that help, but they change as you do and your body does. Don’t feel alone, hang on to good thoughts, and keep talking to us on here, it’s odd but knowing it’s not only me makes it easier because I’m not a freak, just chemical imbalances making me more sad. You got this, you’re here so good job.
Hello. Done all that as well. To messy, clean freak. I have several ways thought out. When i do it, dont want to be found. Just go in silence. A few of mu buddies have done it. I sometimes feel jealous of them.
Thank you for the responses. I will do what i can. If you ever want to talk let me know.
And when you need someone to talk to , you know where we are , don't hold it in , a problem shared is a problem halved as we say round here , so share what is on your mind and hopefully it will feel less x
Your beautiful. Thank you so much
I thought I was just creepy and weird but I do that same thing.
Would you like to talk about life or issues that are contributing to your depression? Are you currently seeking counseling?
Not tonight but tomorrow. Thanks for listening.
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Anytime.. this platform if to surround those who need it. 🖤
I always thought i was weird, differant. Not many friends. I am in couciling. Seeing if it help.
Fordguy, I'm so sorry you're experiencing this. Please know that you are not alone in this struggle, and that your life is so incredibly valuable.
I hope this will encourage you:
I am praying for you, friend.
Thank you. I feeling a little better. The last 2 weeks have been hard.