Depression

[Lunazay]

My depression is killing me. I'm crying right now.

[SSMaxyMan]

Hey there. I actually had a pretty bad mental breakdown yesterday and I too was sobbing my heart out. But here's the thing. It does get better

[Hidden]

Hi Luna,

You've probably got a shit load of stuff you're thinking about. Life is overwhelming sometimes for EVERYONE. I go through times when I have to cry too. I'd say don't fight it. If the time is now and you're body had decided to do it, it is what needs to be done. The release valve opened on its own, it's trying to let go of something that hurt you, and that's ok. Do something kind for yourself. Maybe make some tea or warm milk, watch a comedy. Just recognize and understand that this is a feeling and they pass if you let them. But, if the sadness persists, be kind to yourself and find someone to talk to. I believe this place is a good start. It's my first day here and I've gotten some support, so I'm sharing that love with you. I know at this point it seems very hard, but if you try to let the crap just go like a warm summer shower washing over your body, taking away whatever muck is on you and running it down the road toward a river and out to sea. The air will be clean when the rain stops, and when you breathe it in, you'll feel better. That is my wish for you. Feel better soon

[Sunshine425 in reply to Hidden]

Ive been battling some intense emotions lately as well. Ive been crying on a daily basis. Dont be hesitant to reach out for support💚 you are not alone

[PastelPink20]

I ordered a raspberry smoothie but all it tasted like was orange juice.

I went to class today, I hate my class, I have two tests this week, I am trying to not freak out.

After class this morning, I went and bawled. After class this evening, I slammed the door, threw my phone, and cursed obscenities.

I am not coping very well right now. I can’t find the balance between sad or angry (and it’s funny because I don’t get angry... I’m usually just sad and automatically hopeless - I’ve got to remind myself of the resources I have or make a plan of action to reassure myself). In my mind, there’s this perfect person who I should be, but I’m not her. (And that’s okay).

I don’t know if you’re at the point where you’re sick of crying or if you’re glad you can cry, glad to can still feel something. I don’t cry as much I used to. I’m going to say what I’d want to hear:

You’re human. You’re a human being. You have an inherent worth that is not based on your usefulness or your actions. I’m glad you exist. You existing brings something more to this world. It is difficult. Life is full of hills and valleys... sometimes the valleys are long and seemingly unending. But there will be a hill. Your depression is not all of you. You are strong, for what you do, despite feeling these dark feelings. You are important. You have a beautiful profile picture, I think.

A lot of these things may sound like lies. You might not believe them. But I think they’re true. I think that the lies are things that say, there is no hope, or anything that tells you that you’re worthless.

I don’t know the cause of your depression or your coping strategies or where you are in your treatment. I’m sorry, I just started typing. Some of this is me talking to myself from my experience trying to relate to it to you. (If that makes sense...)

I recommend:

- listening to songs that make you smile or feel happy or say nice things or is funny (you can listen to sad music that makes you feel understood, but it might solidify the sadness, you know?)

- I like watching kid shows or movies. They always have happy endings. They have funny moments. They are what I watched when I was a kid and they make me feel? Idk safe? Like life can be beautiful? Or I’m just sad watching a movie.

- watching a comedy special? Or those videos of funny animals? Idk.

- You can journal (I couldn’t journal until my therapy taught me how to think and do positive self talk).

- Drawing a character you like or just drawing - art therapy is nice!!!

- Reaching out to a loved one (this can be the hardest thing to do). You don’t even have to let the loved one know what you’re going through... you can just sit near them, or call them and ask about them and listen to them prattle on about themselves (and whoo-hoo! Get a distraction from yourself.)

- there’s this free texting helpline you could talk to: text HOME to 741741

- Decide to do one self care thing. It’s probably the last thing you want to do, the hardest thing to do, but tell yourself “I’m doing this for me and I deserve it.” It can be getting a nice snack, taking a shower, picking dirty laundry off the floor, or even drinking a cup of water. These things can be the most difficult. Do one thing or do half of one thing and give yourself a round of applause for whatever you decide to do. (Because yay! You tried! You did something! You’re working through something difficult but you’re trying! And that’s amaZing!! Look at you!! I’m proud of you!)

Sorry that list might be totally unhelpful!! And late to answer you. And it’s totally long. But I’m glad you reached out to post here - that can take some courage and willingness to admit what you’re going through, that can be hard for some. You’re used your voice and we hear you! We’re with you.

[Lunazay in reply to PastelPink20]

Thank you so much for the advise. I appreciate it

[PastelPink20 in reply to Lunazay]

Aw, I’m so glad to hear that. I get worried about what I type and I type so much so I worry about whether or not it was good.

Thank you for posting honestly. If you have any recommendations, (like tv show, movie, music, etc), I would love to hear them! Idk

[Booklover0219]

I know what you’re going through. Sometimes you have to fall apart for a little bit and it’s ok to do that.

[Want2BHappy3]

I know how you feel, I was crying yesterday. Feeling overwhelmed by Life, I talk myself out of doing things. I walked out of my 3rd job after 10 days. The other ones 4 and 6 days. I retired early, had a severe breakdown. I've gone to the Dark space several times, get therapy before you find yourself there?

[ciley in reply to Want2BHappy3]

DARK SPACE? YOU MEAN LIFE?

[Hidden]

May I join you. I’ve just about had it with my anxiety and depression.

[No1wthayla]

And I too wish that neither existed or that they suddenly disappeared in a whirlwind. And please take pain as well. I'm totally over these vicious monsters!!!!

[momofjust2boys]

I feel for you-I have been there. Crying can be a great catharsis, and the first step to climbing back out of the hole. How are you doing now? Life can be overwhelming, that's for sure. Do you have someone you can talk to? Please let us know how you are today.

[Lunazay in reply to momofjust2boys]

The same as always, numb.

[ciley]

i feel terrible today, its me and my problems and its WORLD MENTAL HEALTH DAY just to cheer us all up,cant give you tips, you either get through it or not, i have agony every night and its someones fault, not mine~wish you luck, be as strong as you can as things do occ change for the BETTER