Idk anymore

Ugh I hate mental breakdown... I hating to shaking, tense, cry for no reason, feel so so so worthless, and too much negative in my mind

[Dreamie]

Dear young lady. Yes having mental illness is a truly tough battle. And very frightening too. But there are ways to live well and manage the worst effects. Getting support and encouragement is very important. Taking care of ourselves is very important. Fill us in a little on what you are doing and/or have done in the past to manage your challenges. I understand you aren’t sleeping well. Good rest is needed. Why do you think your not sleeping well? Hang in there and be encouraged. There is hope. My prayers for you. 💗

[Hidden]

Well.. I hate talk about but I have to because I’m sure y’all will support me no matter what.

When I was like maybe 10 my ex dad did abuse me and sexually abused but did not rape... and my bestfriend died like 2015 I believed. till I was like 17 I started thinking to want dead but not that bad till at my school, they was bully me so bad even I went to deaf school. The principle don’t care just sweep in the carpet and finally act when I went to hospital for treatment.. and they take really serious... i di have difficulty time to not suicide... but my last time is like maybe like two week ago... I went to hospital like four time... I missed lot school but somehow I managed it and I graduated. I was almost dropped out. And on my graduation day, I was so cry so happy bec I just can’t believe that I fight trough the difficult.

[Stilltrying_]

Hello Alexandra. I have read this post and your other posts and can see you are suffering a lot. You say your ex dad was abusive. Are you getting any help for this? Are you able to see a counsellor who can help you talk about what happened to you and your mental health?

I can see you are deaf and this can make it harder to find useful counselling but I am hoping you are able to find someone suitable who is able to communicate with you in the easiest way for you. Do you use sign language or are you oral by the way? I only ask because I have worked with a lot of Deaf people who use sign language and I know that here in the UK there are counselling agencies specifically for Deaf people.

Let us know how you are getting on please

Gemma xx

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In Kentucky, I do have counselor that are deaf. And yeah I’m using sign language. I will see my therapy tommrow but it’s will be on video phone not in person. Bec I live in Danville and she work and live in Louisville... she can come here when she can.

[Stilltrying_]

That's good. I am happy that you have your counsellor via video phone. Make sure to tell your counsellor everything and take good care of yourself.

You can get better in time with the right help. Keep yourself safe x

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But feel something missing inside of me but I’m not sure.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

It’s been like since last January

[Stilltrying_]

I am glad you have written about it on here. It is important to tell people when you are unhappy . It may take some time to get better but slowly you will start to feel better when you have been able to discuss everything about how you feel x

[Hidden in reply to Stilltrying_]

Can i message you

[Stilltrying_ in reply to Hidden]

Yes ok