I feel that my anxiety controls me...

[Hummingbird18]

Hi I am new here, I felt anxiety since I was little like at 8 years old. I always remembered feeling anxious about school, at the point that when I had homework, I woke at 10pm just to check about 4 times if I have done all of it. Once wasn't enough... Now I have 18 years old and I get anxiety more that I would like to admit. I get anxious even to decide little things like what to eat in a restaurant, not being able to say what I want to say, always keeping it to myself. I am scared to talk to my mom about my condition she wont paid me a physiologist or any medication she thinks that its silly and that I can control the anxiety. And I really try hard to get over it, but I cannot its to hard and painful...

[argh52]

I feel for you. Gutting out anxiety without help is so painful, as is being denied help by those you love. You're 18 so maybe you could look for drop in clinics without needing to involve your family. Have you tried things like meditation and yoga? Those can help take the edge off.

[Lyngray]

If you're in school, talk to your counselor. They get the same education as a mental health therapist, and it sounds like you need to be heard by someone who will not judge you. You are worth it! Do it!

[Dolphin14]

My earliest memory of anxiety was 5 years old. It's awful to live this way.

My hope for you is to find help and begin to work on the issue now while you are still young. I'm much much older than you and I've just realized what an impact this has had in my entire life.

Both suggestions you've received sound like great options.

I wish you well.