Anxiety - I’m still afraid of it.

[Kat63]

It’s still there somewhere, just waiting for a time when I’m vulnerable to it. I’ve been feeling OK for almost two weeks now. But I still don’t really trust my mind to stay in a good place. I’m sort of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

[Sunnidayz1]

Hi Kat! Im happy for you that you had 2 weeks of being ok. Worry or the "fear of the fear" is very uncomfortable. I know it.

Have u tried to understand where it's coming from? Where it originated from.

[Kat63 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

I’ve been thinking a lot about my childhood and earlier parts of my life. I have a pretty good idea of the events that left me vulnerable.

I need to get back to a place where I trust life again.

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Kat63]

Theres no simple way of dealing with this Kat. Im sorry. I know you are reading Weekes book and that is great. What has helped me is something called "parts therapy". Im sure you can find books on it. Long story short how it works is...everyone has parts that are with them through life.

Sometimes in the media, for example, you probably have heard of someone saying " Part of me is telling me to go and another part of me is telling me to stay" that's just an expression someone might say if they are making a difficult decision. Well, they are talking about two different points of view from different parts of them. So in one person there might be a child part, an analytical, a protector part, a responsible part. Everyone has different titles depending on ones experiences & personality. Theres always a child partand protector part in everyone of us. The key is learn how to settle the child part. By applying compassion techniques towards yourself it helps to calm those anxious thoughts down bc it's coming from her.

It's interesting work. It's hard work but rewarding work.

If u have any questionslet me know my friend.

XxSunni

[Jeff1943]

Kat63, your fear of anxiety is just an echo from the past. After two weeks of respite you fear its return.

Fear is what feeds our anxiety, without fear there would be no anxiety. What is there to fear? Things that probably won't happen anyway and if they do you have the capability to deal with thrm. You feared the loss of your job but you now have another job, problem solved, you dealt with it.

They say when you are down you find out who your true friends are. When you you were down someone invited you to move in with them. A true friend indeed. Cherish that friend, don't question it.

You've had two weeks respite, so what if anxiety comes again? Simply accept it for the moment and send it on its way as you've done before. It's easier the second time around anyways.

[Needtovent]

Kat, i know the feeling so well of waiting for the other shoe to drop. I’ve been fairly free of anxiety for about 5-6 weeks. I’ve had some minor tinges, like today, and i don’t really know where its coming from since all things are ‘in order’..... for the moment....... I do know what my triggers are for the more serious symptoms, and so, something, (an event, a word, an activity) might trigger that in the future. And then what?

I’d like to think that 1) my awareness of where the triggers come from and 2) the acceptance method of Dr. Weekes, will get me through.

The why of the triggers i have yet to figure out and sometimes i just get tired of trying. So I’ve pretty much decided that i need to live in the moment. Enjoy your moment, and I will wish and pray that it lasts for a long time.

[pink318]

Hello Kat,

I’m happy for you for having 2 weeks of being OK. I pray that you will stay strong and will finally overcome anxiety.

Take care of yourself and try to do things you think you love. I'm sorry you are going through this. Please stay in the forum, this is a good place for encouragement, I hope you will be blessed by being here. I hope to hear from you again. God bless.

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So, how's the anxiety today?

I also find it best to live in what I'm experiencing right now and not worry about later. Enjoy the good days. If there's a moment or a day of anxiety, I find a 30 minute walk clears the anxiety enough that I can think through why I feel the way I do and figure out what I need to do to take care of the stressor. I also use other calming methods to help. If the day is just particularly rough, I tell myself it's okay to have a day where the best I can do is just make it through the day.