I just want to die

[BrettS119]

I don't believe in myself. I don't know why others do. I refuse to change things about myself. I have rejected help. I make rash decisions constantly often based on my frustration. I don't want to keep feeling this way. All I want is to put a gun to my head and shoot myself. In my mind it's not worth it to continue. There's no hope for me at all. I won't get out of this hell hole I got myself in. I just know it. I can't change. Why should I bother trying.

[Tikirob]

Hey Brett what’s up! What you are describing is not you but your mental health. You are a regular person contending with a mind that that’s hard to deal with. Right now I feel for you and can relate. People are always getting mad at me for not doing things that they think will help me but fail to see that I have an extremely hard time making decisions! Hang in there please don’t let your mind get the best of you, there is a way but you just don’t see it yet. I thought at the age of 25 my life was over, I got arrested, but 2 years later I ended up graduating college and acting in a play, being appreciative of stupid things like pie with ice cream I used to go to a diner by myself and eat pie a la mode and cry!!! Because I remember what it was like to be hopeless, don’t hurt yourself I want to get to know you better and wi help you if you need to talk to someone

[brokenlight]

I hear you BrettS119.

I’ve felt the same way many times.

But please don’t hurt yourself.

I’m glad you’re here ✨

[maslater]

Things can get better. Are you in therapy? Taking medication?

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Hey! I’m really sorry you are feeling all these hard feelings. I’ve been feeling like that a lot lately. In a desperate attempt to find some coping strategies I came across this template online called a safety plan. It’s very simple and very small but it kind of seems to help to have a written plan for when the world kind of seems to be falling apart. So I’d encourage you to write down 3-5 coping strategies that you can do alone. Then write down 2–3 people and their phone numbers that you trust. And maybe 1-2 places that distract you when you are feeling this way. You can also write yourself a letter when you are in a better place just to remind you of why you are living. I wrote a little note to myself the day I found out I got into college and i always reference back to it when I feel like ending my life. I know it’s very hard so go get yourself a glass of water and something to eat and if possible make the day as easy as can be. Just relax and realize that tomorrow is new and your existence is valued and needed.