Wow..

[speaknothing]

I haven’t been on here for a couple of months now.. looking back at my old posts I don’t even recognize myself in those. I was so hopeless and I just wanted to die. I was in such a dark place. Over time things seemed to be getting better I felt a sense of hope but lately it’s like those dark places are trying to renter my life and I don’t know how to stop them. I am seeking to find a new therapist but that also takes time, I’m just looking for advice. I try to distract my mind but nothing is helping and I feel myself losing hope and shutting down all over again.

[JAYnLA]

It has been helping me to remember that recovery is not linear. Here's hoping that you only have a short blip of the darkness.

[Sober2007]

Glad you reached back out! When you emerged from the darkness before and began to feel hope again, what helped get you there? Were there some specific things you did that helped lift the depression? Are you still doing those things?

[speaknothing in reply to Sober2007]

It wasn’t a thing it was a person. With depression everything is tricky. I know it’s stupid to rely on someone and it’s been drilled into my head many times to not rely on someone because when they leave it’ll hurt worse but it wasn’t intentional, it just happened.

[Sober2007 in reply to speaknothing]

Gotcha. I understand, that's easy to do.

[Sunnidayz1]

Life is hard. We live in a crazy world. It's ups and downs. Stress is a part of life. Depression and anxiety can creep back in during these times. So whether you feel good or not use this site to help others or help yourself when you can. You're not alone feeling the way you do. Try using coping strategies like writing in a journal to get your feelings out, exercising, talking to a friend about your how u feel, seeking therapy.

[2017runner]

Sorry to hear the darkness is back. Can you try listening to guided meditations, doing some gentle exercise, reaching out to a loved one? If not then just know that I am thinking of you and sending you love and hope for finding your way back to where you want to be xxx

[speaknothing in reply to 2017runner]

Thank you!

[Careyon]

It’s great that you can look back and see you made it out before. Hopefully that gives you hope that this too shall pass. Sorry you’re in this place again, but life does that to us sometimes. What happened to your previous therapist ? Can he/she recommend a new one. Pray for God’s guidance, focus on getting a new therapist, stay engaged on this forum and know that your life is precious. Praying with and for you.