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[CallMeByYourSquid]

Bringing up emotions hidden for many years is emotionally exhausting.

Denial is so comforting.

But. Unrealistic expectations of perfection has done so much more harm to my life.

Maybe these moments will be useful one day.

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I agree and appreciate your writing.

Thank you for being here & I’m sorry for your pain & suffering.

[CallMeByYourSquid in reply to brokenlight]

Thank you.

Typing is easier for me than talking.

Grammar literally gives me pause.

It already passed for now.

Thanks for listening.

Wanna share coping mechanisms?

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I can relate. Typing is easier for me too sometimes.

Coping mechanisms for me right now consist of; spending time with my emotional support kitty, spending time in nature, meditating, creating art, creating music, listening to music, dancing, supportive apps (this one, Moodpath, & Insight Timer), writing, solitude, occasional therapy, as needed anti-anxiety meds, and various forms of cannabis.

What works best for you?

[CallMeByYourSquid in reply to brokenlight]

I have a dog I most trained and she’s a lot like me.

She’s very smart and very anxious and doesn’t know her actual strength so when she’s intimidated by another dog, she shows off to look stronger. She’s five and behaves well unless she’s exposed to a new stimulus and is not instantly rewarded as she was as a puppy. She almost never leaves my side.

Music is very useful for me too. It takes me out of my head.

A few movies each year have the same effect and something new changes my life.

Isn’t that the point of art? I think so.

Weekly therapy helps but it can be difficult to stop avoiding talking about past mistakes in order to prevent more.

When I try exercising it’s great but sometimes I only do it because I have a problem with food calories.

Cymbalta for depression, anxiety, and apparently chronic pain but it’s never been useful for anything but an antidepressant for me.

A slew of pills for emergency attack, sleeping and dental work involving a needle. Ironically, getting pierced or inked is very therapeutic. Maybe acupuncture next.

Ditto on the cannabis. Sometimes it makes me paranoid and sometimes it let’s me completely stop bullshitting and enjoy some mindfulness.

[brokenlight in reply to CallMeByYourSquid]

Thank you for sharing that with me CallMeYourSquid.

Your pup sounds awesome & I’m glad you have her in your life.

Music takes me out of my head too.

I don’t think I’ve ever thought of it that way though. Thank you.

It’s great that you have a therapist but I understand how difficult the work can be.

I could use some more exercise in my life... I know it helps.

Great job exercising no matter the reason!

I was on Cymbalta for years...

I hope it has been helpful for you.

Acupuncture is something I’d like to try too.

And I get that...

It’s cool cannabis can help sometimes.

Certain strains make me feel paranoid too.

(Gotta stick with indicas only)

Thanks for connecting and best of luck to you!