What is love?

[Eggsandbacon]

Has anyone ever felt like time is just passing by, yet you are just standing still?

Some days they go by so quick you even forget what made you sad or worry?

But then there is that trigger that kinda freezes you and you wonder what happened? Or why haven’t you done anything to change the situation? Improve the problem? Move forward or on? Let go of things? Forgive those that need forgiveness? Or even evaluate what is it that you have done to self improve?

Then you reminisce and just won’t stop pondering as to why things didn’t work out?

And all the sudden nothing seems to have a purpose or even make sense?

When you see your peers succeed in their career, family, travels, or just following what they want?

The confidence they have to do the things that always seem taboo or even not worth pursuing?

So I sit and wonder what do I like? What makes me truly happy? Am I really in love or confortable? Am I just confirming with society rules to make my peers happy? Am I just trying to fit in with the expectations laid on me? Am I just numb? Have I even tried to seek self happiness? Is the idea of finding a passion in something selfish? Even if it means just sitting at the park watching nature take its course?

Why is it that all the sudden I feel so sad? Incomplete? Confuse? Why am I pondering on an old relationship all the sudden when years have pass and a New has taken place? Why do I feel the need to sabotage the current relationship? Why do I feel so afraid? Why is it that I don’t feel like the person others perceive me as? Why is it that all the sudden I lack confidence? Why do I have soo many questions rolling through my head? Why is it that the tears won’t stop falling? Why do I feel defeated, yet show a different persona when in front of others?

I have not cried like this in a while, and even though sometimes crying made me feel better. This time it feels like it has brought many questions and no answers. The desire to want to figure/fix things just overwhelms me and frustrates me.

So how can I love someone else, if I don’t know what self love is?

-B.

[Ubaniwendiii]

I don't have the answer to your question but the only thing i know right now is i have never seen any one who had a perfect description of how i feel.

Right now i am standing still and time is moving fast and everything around me is evolving

[Eggsandbacon in reply to Ubaniwendiii]

Thank you.

Perhaps I am impatient and wished I could see what the future has in store.

“Good things come for those who wait” I wonder how long they had to wait [whoever came up with that quote]