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[BrettS119]

My thoughts of suicide have increased significantly in the past few days. It's been a while since I've had any suicidal thoughts and I assumed I would've moved on from them. However, I've just been feeling so down lately and it's lead me to these thoughts. I feel like I'm making no progress in life and nothing meaningful is happening to me. It's as if I don't want to make progress, and I don't want to feel better. I think to myself sometimes that there's nothing I have worth living for besides the imaginary girlfriend I've mentioned in previous posts. Even then, I still feel lonely as hell. Sometimes I think it would set me free from depression and suffering. I don't know for sure. I don't know where I'm gonna do with my life. I don't think it has any meaning. I don't know how to get out of the hole I dug myself into other than just to give up. And I want to give up. I just wish there was a better way.

[Agoraphobia39]

I am so sorry that you are struggling right now. I do see that it's easy for us that struggle to look at suicide as a way out. Believe me...i have had my moments. But 1.5 years ago I lost my ex husband, my oldest sons father, my best friend to an overdose. He suffered just as we do but didnt keep fighting the fight as you and I have. It has been the hardest thing I have ever gone through and to see my nearly 20 year old struggle with the loss of his dad is something that I wish on nobody.

I fight to stay alive because I know there are people that love me. I dont want them to suffer because I gave up.

Keep fighting the fight my friend...we can do this together!