Life is moving too fast for me

[Kat63]

I’ve been unemployed for 7 weeks, and have really hustled since then trying to get a job. Now I’m getting requests for several phone interviews in rapid succession.

I’m also moving next week. My boyfriend of 17 years and I have agreed to give our relationship one more chance. I’m almost overwhelmed by everything I have to do to get ready to move. Plus worrying about us working out the relationship. But I have to try, or I’ll regret it the rest of my life.

And on top of that, I’m feeling some existential angst. I’m 55, my bf is 60. All my friends and my brother are in their 50s. We’re getting to an age where a lot of us have lost parents....some of us are winding down careers or have kids leaving the nest. This is another stage of life that I’m getting into, and it’s scary. My father will be 80 later this year. He and I finally have a good relationship, but my mother died about 18 months ago. I know that in the nature of things, it’s only a matter of time before my father leaves me, too.

I just feel like I’m going through a lot of losses, and I’m scared, and I wonder if I’ll ever feel good about life again. I can’t help reviewing in my mind all the mistakes I’ve made in my life, and thinking everything bad is all my fault.

[JAYnLA]

I so relate to the '50's part of your post. I'm having some adjustment problems as well, having lost my mother around the same time you did and my dad is declining as well. I occasionally go to a 'grief group' - I'm glad for the group, but it's quite a sad thing to attend. The goal is to let the grief happen, which I guess I wasn't doing. Thanks for sharing with us.

[Sunnidayz1]

I admire your strength and honesty Kat. Sometimes when we are experiencing a lot all at the same time in life we gotta take a step back. Life can be overwhelming at times for all of us. What you are feeling is completely normal. You might be riding a few waves right now and you are going to be ok. This too shall pass. My therapist tells me that during overwhelming times I should take care of myself more- put more time into self care and that is the advice I'll give to you.

I usually am so tired from stress & I gotta push myself to do things for myself. Every day is a new day. Hang in there. We are here for you.

XxSunni💗💗

[JLoInCali12 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

Nice to see the encouragement! We can all use it! 😊

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to JLoInCali12]

💛💚💙🧡💜