Nightmares

[LonelyGirl24]

I've always had nightmares. It's like a cycle, I jump out of one sweaty with my heart racing and I try to calm myself down only to end up falling asleep and having them again. I'll have up to four each night. I've also heard complaints of me crying in my sleep. Sometimes I wake up and I'm just paralyzed; I'm unable to even open my eyes. I usually get breaks though so normally it only happens for about two weeks continuously and then I could sleep for a week before they come back but now they've been here for so long that I can't even remember. The funny thing is... I never even remember them when I wake up but I'll get startled with glimpses while going through my days. It's extremely frustrating and unsettling. Sleeping for me is so much more exhaustive than actually being awake. I am so drained each day and it's much worse with my mood swings and all the inescapable negativity around me. I try to think of the more positive things but I seem to be incapable of doing that. There are so many things happening all at once and I'm just in a state of confusion. I can't even remember my days now. It's like I'm only breathing from one day to the next, looking at myself in some pitiful life cycle. I know that this post is eternally long, I was trying to cram everything (I failed).

[Tinitus]

I agree with you. I have a lot of similar things going on. I don't wanna come in saying "oh I know exactly what that's like" because I don't know exactly what that's like. I think every one's experience is unique unto itself. I get the feeling there might be more than meets the eye, though. Do you feel that way too? Maybe there's a reason for the nightmares? Have you tried any type of therapy or counseling yet? There might be something there bothering you that you're not entirely aware of. I personally have a horrific memory that just ends. I can't remember what happened, but I definitely haven't forgotten! I have nightmares all the time! After awhile fatigue builds up, all the days start to run together, it's difficult to differentiate how much time has passed and when things have happened, and memory starts to become kinda fuzzy. These are things I'm familiar with.

Things can and will get better. This sounds like it's crippling your every day life, so I want to encourage you to seek therapy. It can be really hard to do something about it, but you can do this. If you don't know where to start, you could try seeing a doctor and ask them to refer you to a therapist. Take the first step, you matter. I wish you well and hope you're feeling better today.

[LonelyGirl24 in reply to Tinitus]

Thank you very much. It's great to know that I'm not the only one experiencing something like this. I have been considering seeing a psychiatrist the problem is finding a good one in the area that I live in. I'm also terrified at what I might find, almost as if I'd have to relive childhood traumas but I guess that it would be entirely better than going through my entire life like this so... It's a definite plan. I hope that things are better for you now