Oh My... Ghrr...

[Midnightwolf1]

Hi, I know it's been a while and I'm sorry I haven't been on here to try to help anyone who might need it.

But a lot has happened since I've been gone. I thought I might of found someone who loves me for me but I guess not cause when I opened up to him, he ended up leaving not long after. Hopefully later in life I'll find that someone who accepts all of me. Then the guy who shoot my cousin wants to pled not guilty and that set me over the edge. Luckily, if everything goes like it should he should get life plus 90 in prison (even though I think he deserves the death penalty). Then I'm so load with stress of being a Junior in High School with all these decisions and test, like I have the ACT tomorrow... Then I have a job on the bus as bus monitor and kid do not know what the 3 letter word SIT means and it's so frustrating. It's so hard to hide everything from my friends and family. And I'm even seeing a School Psychiatrist but that's not doing much for me. And I've been doing bad for about 3 months with a lot of self harm thoughts and stuff. I actually did back in December/January. But I've stopped myself by telling myself that Harley would be so disappointed in me, but the thoughts are still there... I just am so lost and stressed and Ghrr....

~Sky

Sorry that this is long...

[brokenlight]

Thank you for being here & for sharing your experiences.

I’m sorry for all of your pain & suffering.

And I’m glad that you’re seeing a psychiatrist. It may feel more helpful down the road.

Talking about what you’re going through is so important.

Wishing you ease.

[Skydreamer42]

I would consider seeking therapy outside of school

[Midnightwolf1 in reply to Skydreamer42]

I would if I had the time and the money and I'm not really big on trusting Psychiatrists... I'm also trying to be very cautious of who I talk to so I can get into the Military....